Disclaimer: The following is an ad hominem attack on Tal Bachman. If you are Mr. Bachman, or one of his small number of ever dwindling fans, I suggest that you not read this post. I will try to be objective, but be forewarned; I do not have a lot of good things to say about this pretentious, washed-up has-been.
I don’t like Tal Bachman. I’ve read a lot of his posts, and if they are any reflection of who he really is, he must really be one pathetic son of a bitch. Am writing this because he left Mormondom? No, I can’t really say that I’m sad to see him go. Some of the nicest, coolest, warm-hearted, generous individuals I know have left the Mormon church and I have yet to launch a single ad hominem attack on them. In fact, we continue to be good friends regardless of varying religious choices. Membership in an organization is no arbiter when it comes to friendship. With that in mind, let me turn my attention to Mr. Bachman. His singular claim to fame is that he wrote and sang a hit song, “She’s So High.” As a one-hit wonder, he’s in the same category as the illustrious Right Said Fred, Vanilla Ice and Lou Bega (of Mambo No. 5 fame). I’m surprised he hasn’t starred on the Surreal Life yet. Maybe he’s holding out for a spot on Dancing with the ‘Stars’. Marie Osmond made it, why not him?
He has written a voluminous amount of material regarding his thoughts on Mormonism. I’m not sure if he intends to sound like a pretentious, holier-than-thou, pseudo-intellectual, but everything he writes is pretentious, holier-than-thou or pseudo-intellectual. Take a blog post he published a few months ago in May. He criticizes the Mormon conception of heaven and hell, but he makes himself sound like a self-satisfied jerk in the following quote (which can be found here)
“I think heaven isn't a place we go to after we die; I think it is a place we can live in everyday, if we are determined to, and perhaps, if we have a bit of luck. I think it is something we create and find here on earth...and right now. Heaven can be right now...
“I feel sad sometimes when I think of how long I lived always thinking of heaven as another place, and another time. I was too often blind to all the beauty right before me, because I was too often straining so hard to see something far, far off in the distance - which, it turns out, there is no reason to believe is even there, at least in the way I thought.
“I submit that true heaven isn't crazy stories, or distant stars, or strange names and strange clothes and strange spouses. I think it is something that we all have, within us, the power to create and experience, at least to some extent, right here and right now...”
Yeah, whatever, buddy. And with three paragraphs, he assigns those who don’t share his easy rockstar lifestyle to a hell worse than any that God proposed. What happens to those sorry souls, who, for whatever reason, don’t have ‘a bit of luck’? What happens to them? Mr. Bachman would consign them to misery and woe because they are not determined enough, I guess. Or chastise them for hoping for some kind of better existence in the next life? And what is the basis for Mr. Bachman’s faith in humankind? He claims there is no reason to believe in heaven. I agree, at least as far as objective evidence is concerned. But what evidence does he have the mankind can make a heaven here on earth? His own Shangri-La lifestyle, where his biggest complaints are that nobody in the record industry wants to hear his music? He wants to argue both sides of the fence. He has to have a reason for the distant heaven, but offers no reasons for the heaven ‘within’.
Other posts focus on his inability to talk to females in the past because of his worry about temptation. Obviously this is the Mormon church’s fault. The most common complaint I hear about this church is that it stultifies relationships between members of the opposite sex who happen to be married to other people. It would be completely illogical to assume that Mr. Bachman stultifies himself. Maybe someone should tell him that just because he feels ‘tempted’, it is highly unlikely that the person he is talking to feels the same way. When I talk to women at work or at school, I usually don’t get the impression that they are chomping at the bit to go to bed with me, regardless of how naturally charming I am. It must be a rockstar complex to think like that. Maybe Mr. Bachman should evaluate how he internalized the teachings of the Mormon church, rather than make unwarranted generalizations about the impact those teachings have on the general membership.
I think most of my invection comes from the colossal waste of time it was to read what he had written and the colossal waste of time writing this post represents. I don’t usually like (or write) ad hominem attacks, but when someone practically begs for it, can I be anything but obliging?
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The problem with people this day is it seems that wisdom is lost, or has left us. The greatest generation has left taking with it its experience. What I feel that is left is people in a know it all teenage stage of spiritual growth. Liberals, Indigos, or whatever label you want to give them seem to have no patience, tolerance or kindness in them, and they don't appear to think those things are even important.
This world sucks, can you make it better for me?
Good night! Have a good time this evening.
I might have to cancel Shark Week, ios8 won't let me upload photos on facebook. I hope I can get it straightened out soon.
L.
Hey, if it takes a village, then why are there so many single mothers?
lol
There are no stupid questions, but ther are stupid people asking questions. You do the math.
lol
Hatfield,
Our return won't be as long a wait as this one was, just another couple hundred years from now. Your career will be in education, but have no idea what you'll be changing about it. This will be good, I think, because our first son is Albert Einstein. There are three boys and two girls, but not in that order. I think you're a college dean.
McCoy.
He doesn't expand much on his formula, but it is a hobby of his. What his main focus is is explaining a new type of math. I don't know much more about it other than its antimatter/antigravity related. Apparently there is a lot to learn there and is a whole other world of its own.
I think this means I can get my dragons then. Or he explains how I've gotten my dragons via math. Maybe imagination explained thru math?
McCoy.
After many of the atrocities that happened to Joanne in prison, Cauchon always heard her guards' confessions. He absolved them of their sins. Joanne noticed it early on and brought it up at her interrogation.
He seemed stuck on the idea of knowing the name of every priest to heard her confession. So she asked, "Who hears your confessions?" "Why would I need mine heard?" "Because you hear the confessions of my guards." "So?" He asked. "You grant them absolution from their sins against me. But you are the one to give them the order to do those things, those ideas come from you. So," she asked again, "who hears your confessions?"
And when he approached her with a string of profanities, she asked him if he thought it "wise to pray to God with that mouth." Someone snickered and Cauchon spit on her. Catherine right away told Joanne, "He has no right to do that to you, spit on him back."
She did, and when Cauchon raised his hand to strike her someone grabbed and held it from behind.
After that day it was decided to change from verbal interrogations to another kind of interrogation, torture. And Cauchon started his confessions.
Cauchon changed after Joanne's death. His paranoia which was obvious before, seemed to control him and he began looking for loopholes for his own persecution in every decision he was to make.
He was not replaced, but had an underling slowly take over his responsibilities so he could use his time to obsess about Joanne and how displeased God must be with him to favor her death with a miracle.
At the time of his death, Cauchon was considered a recluse, spending all of his time in prayer begging for God's forgiveness. He fasted, prayed, and gave penance to himself all in extreme ways.
The closer he came to his own death the more unnerved he became at meeting God.
I met Cauchon when he was 4 years old. He never spoke to me, even when I was talking to him. When it was just him and I in a room, he left it right away. When we brought him to our house he would sit in the car for about half an hour, never wanting to be there and feeling forced to be, because of me. At about 5 he called me "pushy" at the dinner table. No one seemed to hear it or cared to say anything to him about all of this because his grandmother and his great-grandmother worried that he never smiled.
He was in the 6th grade when he lived with us the first time, and that was for the school year. His father traveled 5 days a week only home on weekends. Homework was a real problem, even with his sister. He had to write a paragraph for school, all that night and before school the next morning there was no paragraph. I sent him to his room, spanked him which he tried to fight, told him to get dressed for school and write his paragraph or he will get another spanking. He wrote it in three minutes, and it was a pretty good paragraph.
He carried that attitude thru to his adult years. Speaking only to his father, standing just out of sight to eavesdrop on my conversations and phone calls, and if we were in a room together he watch my every move, even watching my reflection in a window if he was sitting at our table.
So when he decided it was ok to start missing work to sleep in, his father was tired and told him "Tomorrow if you sleep in, Audrey will wake you up." He was at work, sitting in the parking lot 45 minutes before the doors were opened. Shortly after that he move to his own place right down the street from us. He married someone he met online from Denver and 1 1/2 year later they moved there. As an adult he was with/near us for about 4 yrs give or take, and about a year or more after that, I was in my mirage.
Martha will only have two girls because a year or so after the second girl is born she will notice something's not right with her first, if she admits it or not, she will notice. Ari wanted you to know all of this.
While Cauchon's sister believes he has Asperger syndrome, she too has problems. She has had (I think) two stays in a hoptital psyc ward, with one being as a teenager while she was cutting herself.
She is pregnant with her first child now, and says she wants me to be a part of her baby's life. She has told me before that she considers me to be her mother, and I want nothing to do with her. She has a long story, some of it violent, and for some reason I'm tired of all of it. There is nothing left in me for either Cauchon or his sister. She is not innocent in her troubles and will lie and twist a story to look like a victim.
Again this comes because Ari asked me to tell you.
Forgot: Cauchon's sister reminds me of Clara's behavior. I don't think they are the same.
I agreed to Cauchon living with us as an adult because he found himself homeless and as I said once before, I only knew him as Cauchon, I didn't see the pattern repeat of lifetimes.
I thought it was the perfect time for him to finally see that we could be friends, even if it were just the beginnings of friendship. He would see I'm not the monster his mother made me out to be.
It wasn't until after he found his own place that I realized how naïve that goal was. I was remembering more, and I think it's best we keep our distance in every life from now on. This pain will always be there.
It was important for me to forgive him and have a relationship when he moved in. Now I believe I have forgiven him in every lifetime, because I never killed him back. I treated him better than he treat me and mine in every lifetime, just as Jesus said to do.
But I still see no real value in having done that.
If there is any advice to pass on to my future self about this, it would be that there are people who don't want to be around you, give them their space.
It is not you they hate but themselves. They hate what they did to you, they hate that they were caught doing it. Some hate that they didn't help you when they had every opportunity.
Today you remind them of their poor choices and when they are mad and seem to hate you remember the most important thing: They do not like seeing you because they remember too.
You are the most fortunate, you did nothing wrong. You loved your enemies as you loved yourself. You treated them better that they treated you. You were told to do this and you did this.
(I just don't know why I was told.)
If there is any advice to pass on to others it would be to say:
There are people who don't want to be around you, give them their space.
They may hate you for any number of reasons and you may never know what those reasons are.
Always treat them better than you feel towards them.
It was ALWAYS important to me. It is still important to me because I still don't hurt people back. Even knowing what I know.
I just don't know why that is important, maybe it's not after all.
A Fix:
It was ALWAYS important to me. It is still important to me because I still don't hurt people back. Even knowing what I know about them.
Ok, I think that's it for today! Love you and sweet dreams!
Just stopped by to look around, wondering where to pick up the story next and came up with this:
Joanne's ring was part of a jewelry set. There was a necklace, bracelet, earrings, and of course the ring. Morgan is wearing the ruby or garnet colored necklace, the ring was Joanne's but was also worn by Magdala as her wedding ring. The earrings are with Helen and the bracelet was Sappho's.
There might have been a pin too...
Maybe tomorrow there will be more. I will leave you with my Good Night wishes and of course L!
This morning, I'm wondering if my beloved Faberge created the jewelry set. What a nice surprise if it were true!
The set originated with Isis and because of its value survived Atlantis and later sold In pieces.
John gave Magdala her ring a couple of years before their wedding, wearing it only when the two were together. At her death Sarah had it, and in spite of her poverty it remained in their family. One of Morgan's sisters had the ring.
When Joanne found it she kept it with her only wearing it when she and Michael were alone. Her mother found it on laundry day in Joanne's pocket and asked her about it in front of her father. Knowing the ring was valuable he decided to go with her door to door to try to help find its owner. He didn't want it stolen saying she could keep it if no one stepped forward to claim it, and because of its value he wanted her to put it away. So it stayed on the families mantel until she left.
You do know a song would have been much quicker to write. It seems like there is more to this book than I first thought. If you change your mind about the song, let me know.
I have to do a couple things so I probably won't be back for a couple of hours.
Why don't you try to fit my poem The Nature of Time to some of the music you already wrote? I'd like for Dave to be able to retire before he drops and I feel guilty not helping out like I used to.
I hope you still have the poem, because I don't. Anyway, love to you this fine fall day!
Just got Antony and Cleopatra by Adrian Goldsworthy today and noticed that the photo they have listed as Sextus Pompey is actually Pompey. Handsome guy, don't you think? L.
Also, did you know that Cleopatra also worked as a judge in some civil and legal disputes? Maybe twice a year there would be cases brought to her.
Does this dribble ever end????
It will some day, but for now, it has now beginning and no end.
Page 1:
In the beginning there is light. From a distance it looks to be just light and many come to see its beauty. And because of its beauty those near the light can feel it, and the light feels good. And because the beautiful light feels good, many more are drawn to it. And as you move closer you hear the sound it makes, and as you move closer still, the sound it makes forms patterns. And the light becomes the word. And the word is wise.
The wisest people always listen. They listen to everything and everyone even when they know what they are hearing isn't wise. They listen to understand the feelings, and they listen to understand why some hear the light differently.
I updated the Book of John and Genesis to make it my own. So that all the beginnings are similar.
I'm not sure if I posted this before or not, and I'm not going to take the time to search:
This book is dedicated to God's gifts, Forgiveness and Mercy.
Wanting to say 'Good Night!' and I hope you had fun today. L.
History records that Joanne was withdrawn and introverted before her capture and tho she was by her nature, this was true at this time for several reasons.
Her 'of Arc' title was being forwarded to the King and it was known for sometime that there was no problem with his support. History has her as waiting permission to quit the war.
Jean had asked her to marry him as soon as her title was granted. That she was barren did not put him off though there seems more to that part of the story. She answered him with a very excited 'Yes!' and their agreement was sealed with Joanne's first kiss. She had just had her 17th birthday and with la Hire in prison, and her own retirement from the war the no touching rule was relaxing.
Joanne was euphoric. The same type of euphoria as she felt after Orleans was won, and she worried that an arrow would bring her down hard again. So when it came time to return her items to the University, she asked Jean not to go, to give the job to de Cagny.
She already told Jean, la Hire and de Cagny, why the University was important and with la Hire turning himself in to the King... there was someone else with us who might have known a bit of what we were up too and why. Someone you know from your group with us now that history has left out. They were part of Joanne's security, his name is in her history but has been left out of much of her story... C&A's Alexander. Nice, I will let you know his name when it crosses my path!
Anyway, Jean wouldn't hear of staying out of the University. Wanting to see for himself, he believed his diplomatic immunity would protect him. Joanne was mad that he would take an unnecessary risk when she was asking him not too, so he spent time reassuring her. And since Joanne couldn't say anything more than she was uncomfortable, that she had no bad feeling about de Cagny and Alex going, she tried not to worry. He returned safely saying what they saw was just as she described it and she tried to relax.
There was no chance for Cauchon to grab Joanne since they were staying in a private residence. And since she didn't leave it often, they were attacked when they were leaving Paris. He was only thinking about it, but didn't decide to grab Joanne until late, when he learned Jean was making progress in his work.
Jean never knew Cauchon had him followed, and that Joanne did know is, I'm told, the reason we've had no real contact in this life. It would have been much more stress for me, I think, having to deal with Cauchon. Plus, like I already said, he would have remembered you first too. It's helped me some know that you weren't part of this.
I've wondered many times why Morgan wasn't killed. After Morgan moved to Germany, she heard rumors that years ago her father-in-law died mysteriously. He wanted another heir and her mother-in-law, having already done her duty, felt if the child died then she would work towards another. He persisted and died.
That Morgan's mother-in-law controlled Morgan's sex life so completely might have been the only reason Morgan lived. The moment the sixth girl was born, her mother-in-law said, "I am so disgusted with you." Then left the room with the baby.
Before she died her son made a promise of Morgan's death, so her mother-in-law died peacefully enough, and I find it odd that Joanne wasn't captured until after she accepted her marriage proposal. Cauchon picked up where he left off in the life before, wanting Morgan dead.
I've been thinking a lot about the sign Joanne was to have given the King when they first met, and it was Joanne telling him something about his childhood. The answers died with his father, I think, and after his father's story was explained to him, the King asked what she could say to him to help him believe she was getting the information directly from his father. That was his proof and he believed his answers were his father's side of his history.
I still don't know what she said exactly, but maybe it will come up later. Or maybe not at all, if the knowledge will interfere with their healing later. My story doesn't trump another's.
Going back to Goldsworthy's book and the photo that's listed as C's father... I can't shake the feeling that that looks like a baby faced Mark Zuckerberg. And of course not C's father.
Even tho C's birth chart was known to Egypt, she was NOT pre-determined to be a Cleopatra, just that she was a strong possibility to be one. There were tests you need to pass to have any of the gov't positions. It was not a birthright.
In the gov't if you held a position and another came along more qualified, you were transitioned out of that position and into another if the better qualified person wanted your job.
For example, there were degrees of psychic abilities. While Ritchie needs to touch stuff, and I pick up info in a quick glance, you see? The title/job of Cleopatra was open, but a lesser qualified title of Bernice was filling the job of a Cleopatra. So it was always understood to Bernice that she was to step down, which she finally did. But Martha doesn't like to give up anything willingly and probably complained A LOT about it to close friends. It's the same as being fired, or demoted from your job, plus, as I said before, she should have retired long before she did. And Jules escorted her home.
There were several names Sappho could have chosen in her class of psychic ability, she kept with tradition and chose C. There were also more names than Bernice that Martha could have chosen.
I know your Edna was in Egypt too. Why don't you try to find her picture before I do :) L.
Tal,
Ari and I both believe you should be doing this assignment w/o photos. You already know what she looks like! So be warned, if you look upon the face that you should well remember, then my eyes will see exactly what your eyes will see.
And I'll win. L, and Good Night, maybe. I'm not sure.
And I really have no objection to Ritchie being allowed to touch the photo if he needs to. I just think you should prove how much you loved your grandmother and remember her.
Remember this:
"Cauchon changed after Joanne's death. His paranoia which was obvious before, seemed to control him and he began looking for loopholes for his own persecution in every decision he was to make.
He was not replaced, but had an underling slowly take over his responsibilities so he could use his time to obsess"
I just realized that this is how he stays in power, for Octavian, Paris, Cauchon and others. Once he gets whatever he is killing for, he slowly gives his responsibilities away because he needs more and more time to obsess. It's his repeat.
He stays in power as a figurehead and nothing more.
L. And Nite.
Where Cauchon sought prayer, fasting and penance after Joanne's miracle, Octavian became grandiose, giving speeches of how to persevere, never give into oppression, and do not believe it when people tell you they know better than you...not political speeches at all but moral or fake wisdom kind of stuff.
But again he slowly replaced himself so he could be a motivational speaker.
But I need to know how he got away with killing children like he did. That left unanswered for me.
Can't go back to sleep.
He was telling his story to the public thru his speeches and after his and Cicero's death, Cicero's joking with Antony became historical fact. The public found Octavian reasonable even insightful from his speeches, but he could never put the murders behind himself to move back into politics.
Always the focus was his overcoming his challenges and how wise he is now because he succeeded in those challenges.
Knock, knock.
Be right there! I need to put some clothes on!
Hahaha, no! You can run off with my joke, that's not fair! Here, let's try it again:
Knock, knock!
Ok, hurry up and tell your joke.
Who is it?
Butter.
(Sigh)
Butter who?
I butter hurry up, because it looks like the tour bus left without me :(
You know, I still have not title for my half of the book. I just realized....
Oh, and after you edit/organize it, I will need to review it to add small pieces like when Bertrand gave Joanne money, she had her hair cut and bought travel clothes and some dresses.
But I'm sure you already know.
I read somewhere years ago that one of the many side affects, or symptoms of remembering your past lives is a noticeable temperature change. Mine were extreme.
I took some bacon out of the freezer and I noticed it felt warm but was still frozen. So I touched it again to make sure, and the longer I kept my hands on it the hotter it felt. I knew I was feeling bone cold.
Bone cold is a deeper than normal cold that seems to reach beyond you physical body touching your astral one. When this happens it is the beginning of you blending your two bodies together. Why would you do this? Because it is the very beginning of an age of miracles for you. It is an awkward stage of physical spiritual growth that is a precursor to your ability to create miracles. Literally.
There was no doubt for me that my temperature changes were more spiritual in nature than a physical ailment. When I noticed the frozen bacon feeling warm, I breathed in ice cold air. And when I released that breath it was still ice cold, my body could not warm the air in my lungs. I knew it to be the breath of the dead.
One July weekend, while I was remembering where Joanne can be found and listening to a conversation my voices were having, I grew so cold I laid down on my driveway for warmth. It was 103 outside and I found it very comfortable, I still do on occasion.
When the heat cycle started for me it left me ill and I had to stay home for days to be near my bathroom. Once after I had been sick and heated I found myself holding tight to a dresser asking Armand to help me reach my bed. I thought I might faint from the strength of the heat.
(As a side note, I'm two weeks into another heat cycle, like the last one I was in when I showed up here. Ari said you want to know the timing)
I've noticed that food, sleep and activity can trigger the temperature changes, and I've also noticed that the Earth is going through global warming too.
Do I think the earth is dying off? No, I don't. Do I think global warming is real? Yes, I do. But it is temporary and the colder and hotter temperatures will settle into a new normal pattern. Are humans causing global warming? We are all in this together with the planet, so yes. But I don't think it's happening because people neglect the Earth. However, I do believe we can do somethings better and be more helpful to the planet.
And so Science knows, ours is not the only planet changing right now. They all are. I need to say this because there is no real data collected about other planets yet, and this will skew your reference points. These planets will also operate slightly different and are not dying off either. Keep in mind too that some planets will change quicker than others. I'm thinking thousands of years.
Going back to sleep, I hope, and I'm leaving you with my notes of where I am in my thoughts: The importance of manners and consideration toward another. The importance of keeping your part of the planet clean. Who is "entitled" to miracles and the rules that govern them. Thanks for waiting up for me :) Love you.
For a miracle to happen, you must be a clean channel. What that means is you must be at peace with your past. If you have been the victim, you must soothe your sorrows until they no longer affect your decisions. If you have been the criminal, you must do the same.
Most people do this through jobs, work and family, and as you know this is often thought of as working through your karma. Karma is more than the "What comes around, goes around." slogan.
Karma is the force of the Universe that clears you as a channel. It originates in the highest dimensions where miracles are easy and occur often, and it pushes itself through you, sometimes very aggressively, into this physical Earth dimension. Since karma is a force, it seen as an action, most think of it as your life challenge. Your ability to deal with your troubles is what gradually changes you into a clear channel.
When your physical body has processed enough of your karma, your body changes, beginning with your endocrine system. Eventually this lets the Universal force that can create miracles enter this world traveling through all of your dimensional bodies to end itself in this world through you endocrine system and you have a miracle.
For Joanne, when her spirit left her body, a force that for her was waiting, or living, in and around her astral body moved into and claimed her physical body protecting it from fire. It was Catherine and Margaret's job to direct the force to do that. You see, it takes two and sometimes more individuals in different dimensions for some miracles to occur.
Looked again at this last post and it feels alittle awkward to me. Maybe tomorrow I can find a better way to write some of it. We'll see.
Good night to all my friends here. Love from Audrey.
Oh, one last thought Tal.
If you are going to act as my editor then you should know before you make any book deals, I don't do book tours.
Sorry.
Merlin gave the shroud to Morgan as a wedding present. Both shrouds were hanging on his wall and he asked which one she thought was hers. She picked the female living Christ, he laughed and said he thought so too, but that shroud was to be left for the future. It's hanging on a wall in the crypt in surprisingly good condition.
The water marks on the other shroud are Morgan's tears. Whenever she needed to cry she held it to her. This tradition started when Morgan left Camelot with her husband and mother-in-law. She started crying soon into their journey of homesickness, so her mother-in-law had everyone stop and was Morgan transferred to supply carriage. She held the shroud and cried.
Most of the tear stains came when Morgan's oldest daughter was eight years old. Her daughter was very sick and her adopted mother was scared the girl would get sick enough to die. Instead of the woman risking her own death from the girl's grandmother, she sent for Morgan.
Morgan was trying to coax the little girl to take the medicine she made when the girl took her hand and began to lightly play with Morgan's fingers. She brought Morgan's hand up to her face and Morgan thought, "Ah, at last! A show of affection from this child!"
Instead of kissing Morgan, the girl bit her finger until it fractured. It was then that Morgan changed. She accepted her situation and three or four years later she was running back home.
Will be stopping now, I think. Have a good day today.
Wait a minute! My first post from this morning is missing. I swear it was there earlier! So these next two posts come before the shroud.
When I saw my years with Octavian in this life were a wasted effort, I was crushed. It seemed he was determined to stubbornly agree that Octavian was right to act the way he did. And next to realize Martha has a better chance of reaching him than I, I was crushed even more. It was then that I took a deeper look at Martha's history with Octavian.
From Atlantis on she has been his firm supporter even though politically they sometimes don't agree, she will always give him what he asks.
Isis was living in Martha's tribe at the time the moon was cut, and Martha left her tent to tell us Horus made an announcement. He wanted everyone to look at the moon over the next hour and when we did this the lasers fired and the cutting began. We were all horrified, and she said he also wanted Isis to turn herself in. So I gave her my title. Isis was a title, much like Cleopatra's name.
Right away she contacted Horus and told him of my location. Right away I left her tribe. Knowing he supported the war and also the calls for my capture didn't bother her as much as my being found with her tribe. It was well known that those turning themselves in were quietly murdered, but Horus would never publicly admit he was doing this.
Even though we took the same stance over the moon, she would not harbor a fugitive. To asked me to leave and not report my location was not an option she would consider.
So I decided to accept that Martha was the best choice to show Octavian right from wrong. The difference between his vibration and mine is too vast, and hers is one that is more comfortable for him to tolerate. They are friends every time.
I see her now as a bridge between Octavian and myself. Do I think that she and I could become closer because of this? No, sadly, I don't. Partly because she would have to admit she and Octavian made mistakes, and partly from her repeat of never even trying to save my life.
For Martha raising Morgan's youngest daughter, I understood that all of my girls should be seen as adopted. Even though I was refused the chance to be a part of their lives, there were many women who lost their children and I tried to console myself with the knowledge that my girls were all alive.
D's mom used to ask me to call her 'Mom'. She always made no secret she wanted this, even saying, "You do it in your emails to me." So I tried just a couple of times and it felt so very wrong and I would feel sick. I asked many times why before Ari would tell me, "She didn't earn the title." Instead I listened as she told many, in front of me, how much it hurt her.
Ok, hopefully these posts will still be here when I show up later.
Ok, so let's take a peek in the coffins...
Arthur is dressed in his chainmail with a belted dress tunic covering it. There is a small red cross outlined in silver and black on the upper left part. He has either a pendant or a gorget.
Mordred is dressed as a Templer judge and Lancelot is dressed as a patrol man, so you can see the difference in the two uniforms. I think they are mostly the same with Mordred's have more detail. Both have large crosses in black and silver on their tunics. Both are in chainmail.
Since Galahad died before the government changed families he is dressed as a miniature of Arthur without the chainmail and is holding the Holy Grail so proudly. A cute little guy.
Uther is in his Sunday best. He has a leather collar or leather gorget and cuffs that cover most of his forearms. He also has similar cuffs covering most of his shins.
Merriweather is dressed in a light blue shift or under dress with a dark blue tunic or overdress that has a corded belt, very pretty. I don't see jewelry.
Guinevere is in a light peach under dress with a darker peach overdress that is tied on both sides. She is wearing the necklace Arthur gave her when he returned from the Middle East very early in their marriage. It was his wedding present to her. It's an enameled lotus flower design done in shades of peach, pink and white with green at its base.
So pretty to look at! Don't know what the others are wearing yet, probably everyday dress too. I didn't know any of the others so maybe that's why I have nothing on them. Good night and L.
Was thinking that the shroud is in such good shape, science might be able to see more of how they were both made. A teaser for my Ritchie.
Morgan kept hers folded a certain way and stored with her clothes. Her cottage was searched from time to time, (orders from the old bat) so I hid it just in case. I'm sure that has something to do with obscuring how it was made.
They were both made together in an atomic blast. :)
Good night for sure this time. L.
Once the heat cycles start, it could be up to 10 yrs before you notice your new abilities and miracles. Or so I'm told. With my heat cycles also come the Bone Cold, they seem to switch back and forth very quickly.
You already know you can only sleep for short periods at a time, and I need to sleep with dry towels and a sports drink, plus a heating pad. I expect this to last for about another month, maybe slightly less. And I think there might be one last one after this which will last a just weeks.
I'm told there are other steps yet to come in this process, but not told what they are, just that they aren't as uncomfortable. It gives me some small worries that everything I've written here better be true...I've made some big promises and predictions and I'm the one people see, not Ari.
I think Jeasus was referring to the Bone Cold when he said "pray this doesn't happen in the winter, because no one would survive." And he might have been talking of our games when he said people will be looking for the Christ.
I'll be around to say 'hi' but I'm going to be busy thru Saturday. L.
After the heat and cold, comes a spinning disc feeling I get. It's in the center of my back just below my shoulder blades and when it was spinning at its strongest it was spinning clockwise.
I don't know what it does, and I thought it was a chakra, but no explainations are given to me, so....
I've felt it spinning twice since the last March heat cycle, and it's duration wasn't as long or as strong as in times past. Have a good weekend and a good night. L.
John was suffering from rigor mortise when he told MM "Don't touch me, you know I haven't returned to the Father." What he was saying was "you know I didn't die on the cross." So many rumors, and MM wasn't there and didn't know what to believe, so she went to find her husband and give him some supplies. He wasn't in his shelter so she waited and worried until he showed up.
Rigor mortise is extremely painful and mostly present during the morning and the first several hours you're awake. At its height, you're in pain all day long and having anyone touching you should be avoided. I call it rigor because you want to stay very stiff and when you first start to move you feel as though you are breaking your joints.
You don't want to get out of bed and move, but movement is the only thing that relieves the pain. But then I never thought of taking an aspirin to see if it would help. Once, when I again woke up in tears, I decided to just lay there. My mind was deliberately kept busy while Armand help move me out of bed. I was standing and trying to walk the pain off before I knew it, and very grateful for the help.
So the mirage, heat, bone cold, spinning disc and rigor mortis are all ascension side affects. And since I was so sick for so long, I never thought to record the order and duration of each side affect. It's more work than a sick person needs, especially with the back and forth movement of each symptom. I also don't have a clear starting point for any of this. The symptoms seemed to slowly roll in, then leave, and I didn't know anything was amiss until the symptoms stayed.
At the new year I will be starting my sixth year since the mirage.
The tuning fork sounds I sometimes hear (which were explained to you, but not to me) can be heard in either ear, sometimes both, and sometimes loud, soft, loud, loud, soft, like someone is playing with the volume control during one long note.
Migraines, tuning fork, heart palpitations, dizziness, these I consider smaller symptoms since they only inconvenience and not disrupt your life.
Jumping to Atlantis: I was wondering why no one seemed to know Isis in her travels until she introduced herself, which she only did the one time. Right now the only explanation I can offer is Horus' horse face. When he was confined to the hostel he had a normal face, but he left wearing a horse face and I think when famous people as Isis and Horus went public, they did so with masks to protect their privacy. I've had no visions or memories with Isis wearing a mask yet. The only fool proof way to id a person was to measure their heart chakra. L.
Just stopped in to wish you a good nite! And I think it's coming up on five years not six....L.
Do you remember this:
"For a miracle to happen, you must be a clean channel. What that means is you must be at peace with your past. If you have been the victim, you must soothe your sorrows until they no longer affect your decisions. If you have been the criminal, you must do the same."
Another BIG part of being at peace with your past is killing those repeats.
I hang around here way too much, leaving for sure this time. L.
Morning! Isis never wore a mask, she was heavily made up much like C when she appeared as a public figure, and she only did that two or three times. Then suddenly things weren't safe for many of us.
There is a level of shading/blending that C used around her eyes with the paint that is lost or ignored. She also did use some make up everyday, but the Egyptian look was paint.
If I don't talk to you again, have a good day! L.
Did I tell you yet that Peter was married to Joanne's prison nurse? He picked up with Joanne where he left off with Cleopatra, but I'm not sure what that exactly means yet, I think he knew Octavian was coming for her. Will be away this afternoon, so you won't see much more from me :( L.
Oh, the rich mans basement was his...
You are not much of a writer. Why not get some training in writing before you unleash this epic of yours?
Knock, knock!
Who's there?
To.
To who?
To WHOM!!!
I can't believe I've met all of these people again in this life and lived to tell about it, even if it's poorly written.
Did you know that another of my posts is missing? This one was posted right before the "lets take a peek in the coffins" Oct 1st post:
The Pendragon crypt is a big rectangle. The first half, when you walk in the door, displays the stone coffins and shroud. The second half, where Arthur's table, Merlin's work and family writings are are to the right, but again it's all one big room. The storage space looks to be a big area holding more than I've mentioned, maybe there's more there that I shouldn't see yet?
So when you open the door you see the Shroud hanging on the back wall and two torches that should have burned themselves out by now. Then, below the shroud the coffins are displayed in two rows of six coffins, with an aisle in the middle.
The table Morgan is laying on was an altar in front of the Shroud. She was able to turn it in the same direction the coffins are.
Both of Arthur's parents are there and two smaller siblings. Arthur had two sisters that survived and were married, but they aren't a part of the crypt.
So we have in top left row, Sibling, Arthur's mother, Arthur's father, Morgan (she is slightly out of line because the table is pretty heavy), Sibling, Galahad, Galahad's mother. Next row L-R is Mordred, Guinevere, Arthur, small aisle, Uther, Merriweather, Lancelot. I think that's everyone and the siblings were a brother and sister.
The coffins are very simple, they have the names engraved across the lids and some have the cross.
Good night and L.
And I think it's only the guys who have the crosses on their coffins. L.
I met Peter for a 20 min meeting at work, he was a heavy set, bald, bland looking man who was verbally aggressive. He wore a big fat wedding ring and I wondered in the meeting what woman could stand living with such a pig. I pitied any kids they might have had, and now I wonder how he became a saint.
Martha succeeded with Peter by staying away from him. He had nothing to do with his children until they were of age and could work for him. When he was around he was in charge and he was obeyed immediately. Wouldn't it be interesting if Peter ends up as Martha's second daughter? Tal, I think maybe we should skip the family reunions...how do you feel about it?
Peter never hit Martha in any lifetime, but he would throw things in anger, and that was her reason for leaving him. She told him she was worried what would happen to them and their daughter for her marriage if Joanne was discovered or killed. He said, "No one will know anything if you keep your mouth shut about it." She persisted and he threw something that hit the wall beside her and he said, "You can practice by shutting up right now!" And he left the room. A week or two later Martha left to take care of a 'sick' relative and never returned to him.
Wishing you a good nite! L.
Thought you might like to know there are some drawings of Mordreds in the crypt.
The Templars told Morgan when Lancelot was murdered that the crypt was to be sealed since it was no longer a family home. They had control over the building for some time now and after Mordred died it was decided to refuse any more Pendragons but allowed Uther to be buried next to his first wife.
Morgan asked for Lancelot and because he was, as she said, one of their own they reluctantly agreed. She was given a closing date and made sure the family treasures were included. They were the ones who wanted the tomb sealed and it fit so well with Morgan's plans.
Camelot became the headquarters for the Templars, and when she was told about the crypt she was also told to remove the family's remaining personal stuff. A globe that was in Mordred's office, also an embroidered picture/tapestry (or was it a rug) Morgan made for Arthur, in fact most of Mordred's office was placed there. Much of it was Arthur's too. His office was put there temporarily because Lancelot had a very promising future as a Templar and we were saving it for him. There are also two or three portraits, not sure of who yet, and a chair that belonged to Arthur. Plus a few more smaller things to be saved for later.
Closing the crypt rubbed Morgan the wrong way, so she explained she was removing Arthur's table because it was family property, this was the same excuse they gave her for sealing the crypt. They were using the table and wouldn't release it saying it was too heavy to be moved, so Morgan moved it herself. It was gone one day and they were spooked when they saw it in the crypt, Morgan even chuckled at some of their responses from her hiding spot.
The wall carvings, there were two, were noticed at the same time and left alone because of the mystery of the table.
When the sheriff was scheduled to arrive there was to be a meeting with Morgan, the Templars and the sheriff. After the questions of table being moved, it was easy to see Morgan would face charges. The crypt was closed a week or two before the meeting and when Morgan didn't show up, a small and unenthusiastic (because of the table) search was made.
Peter was a Burgundian and was mayor or governor of Paris, he was also one of Paris' brothers from Helen's life and the rapist Helen stabbed in the testical. They were his men that captured Joanne.
I need to stop now and hope to pick it up here later. I'm meeting Mary to go to the Amish market. You might have read that D is out of applewood smoked bacon. :)
Have a good day! L.
A Burgundian was a member of a political party financed and backed by England and nothing to be afraid of. Burgundians were seen throughout France but the party was based and had its roots in Paris and beyond. There were 'elections' of a sort coming up and Jean and Jeanne were campaign advisers. Peter and Cauchon both decided to stop them after being discovered in Paris.
During her army days Joanne felt very safe with her security guards, never in mortal danger, but after the arrow she did realize a strong need for caution. In those days it was not normal to kill a woman, and it was not normal to die the way she did. For so many reasons she didn't think her death was a strong possibility, only a small one.
I did look at Rene some more, and history says his first wife lead the army to free him from prison. It didn't happen like that. She met Jean, and Joanne too, before their capture, wanting him as a husband before they even met. No one knew he had asked Joanne to marry him, and though he didn't encourage a relationship with his first wife at that time, he didn't discourage one either, and because of that she did everything to make sure she was his only choice.
After Jean was released from prison, she showed up again picking up where she left off. Jean was able to put her and her father off while he was looking for Joanne, but as soon as he was sure Joanne died he agreed to marry her. Wasn't that nice?
Charles being crowned was important for the elections. By law the King of France must call for elections and whoever wanted to live under his rule showed up and voted, by leaving their names and address. These were checked against tax records, this and other steps were taken against voter fraud. But still election fraud existed, and la Hire was with Charles accusing the new leaders of Orleans this.
If the majority voted for King Charles and the vote wasn't respected, Charles promised to settle their differences. Joanne and her voices were very clear her role was only to see that Charles was crowned. Battles may continue without her, this too was understood. So there was never a problem between Charles and Joanne. Her job was over shortly after Charles was crowned. Simple.
Peter never spoke with Joanne, it was decided to only have members of the clergy/church speak and tend to Joanne, because of their divinity and chaste lifestyle. Everyone believed the church and not a politician would be more acceptable in God's eyes, therefore the church was in the best position to decide all matters about Joanne.
Peter made the trip with Cauchon to see Joanne's body. Since the tree was still standing they ordered it cut down and watched as the items she touched were added to the firepit. Later they returned to see that the pit was covered to their liking.
Peter understood violence, and when you pain a man who is raping you with nothing more than a splinter of wood, he may stop raping forever. He settled instead to throw things at them. It was his game to throw things as close as he could get them without hitting them directly and if he hit them, well then, what did he really care?
Peter was also the patriarch of the family that killed Lancelot. L.
It was Peter's idea to capture Joanne, he wanted her stopped much more than Cauchon. Cauchon was afraid of Joanne's talents, and Peter hated that she was a woman working where she did not belong and someone needed to show her her place, who after all, was a nobody.
Jeanne was making quick headway and if she continued, especially in Paris, Peter would have nothing left to leave his son from his first marriage. I'm not sure why that was so important to him when he always thought his kid was an idiot.
So Cauchon ordered Peter to arrest Joanne. The two thought Joanne was a religious figure and not a political one, they also believed they could at most only detain her because of her supernatural abilities. As soon they realized how clever their plan was playing out, which was early on in her capture, they decided to keep her.
While Peter never spoke with Joanne, he did read all of her transcripts. There was something in there that bothered him after Joanne's death and I don't know what it was, or how it affected him later only that it did.
He remained somewhat successful in his career after Joanne and while Cauchon lost his career to embrace his religion, Peter lost his religion and embraced his career. The two severed their ties and Cauchon lost all of Peter's financial support.
In John's life, Martha knew Peter wasn't following the law in all of his dealings, but she was a teenager, and knowing it all, she married him anyway. It was her repeat in Joanne's life, and with each lifetime with Peter, her soul was realizing he was getting nastier to her.
When she expressed her concern to him over Joanne it was because Joanne told her of their plans to burn her. Before Martha took her daughter and left, Peter told her if she said anything about Joanne to anyone he would have her burned too. Sadly for me she choose to believe him. She never said a word to anyone, even though she knew Charles would arrest her husband and keep her and her daughter safe. Joanne whispered it to her after the rape, never including that as part of her testimony. Then too, why would she believe Joanne at that point.
In Helen's life, Martha was one of the kidnapped women freed from Troy. She had just given birth the day before the rescue.
I will be stopping soon, so if you see me then you see me, but there won't be much more right now. L.
Good night and have a good evening. L.
Although the heat and bone cold quickly switch back and forth, they start out very slowly. At first, you'll feel nothing but heat, then months or years later depending on your cycle, nothing but cold. It wasn't until after the mirage that I even noticed the cold as a symptom and the heat I believed was a premature start of menopause. Also it wasn't until after the mirage, when I noticed it as bone cold from my bacon story, that the heat and cold seemed to be working at the same time, in tandem.
I feel the heat and cold in the day and at night. I usually break out of sleep then burst into flames, but I can also wake up after the flames have left me soaked in sweat. Shortly after the heat leaves, the cold moves in and takes over as completely as the heat. The only thing that kills the cold is a long hug from a heating pad. It's not until after the cold starts to leave that things get a little interesting.
Sometimes I feel little fingers of electricity buzzing through me. I would have to describe it as wearing a bodysuit that has it's parts at times turning on and you feel gentle tingles running over you, like an electrical discharge. At first I thought this might be part of the astral body makeup, but Ari now tells me "No." with no other explanation offered.
Last night I was laying on my left side feeling the buzzing on my whole right, sometimes I feel it on just an arm or leg or the extreme of a whole side. I don't think I've noticed the electricity in my more awake or busier hours. I'm sure I feel it when I do, because I'm still in a sleepy brainwave state of mind. I don't feel the buzzing as often as every hot/cold flash, probably a couple of times before the hot/cold leaves me for the cycle.
Since this heat cycle started in September, I have yet to feel the knob turning in the middle of my back, that may happen after the heat/cold is over. When it happens, I'll let you know.
I have some memories of Morgan's testimony to the Arthur's Table, but they aren't written up yet, plus there aren't many of them, and as usual this is a note to remind me of where I am...TTYL L.
I was paging Goldsworthy's A&C book yesterday and realized that the boy Antyllus, who was raised by another of Antony's wives, was actually a nephew and sister-in-law. Her and her son had fallen on hard times and Antony was giving her money to help support her and her son until their circumstances improved.
The money payments were temporary, a year I think, and A did it because he wanted to, not because of some Roman law. I think his brother died and when A could he spent time with Antyllus to help ease the little boys pain of losing his father. The boy wasn't named after Antony, but was named after the same man as Antony.
He did this while C was living in Rome, and his wife, who already left him, was giving him so many troubles.
When A&C were alive nobody believed A was a drunk or a womanizer, and C wasn't a murdering bitch. Those stories came well after O, but originated from whatever country Peter was ruling at C&As death.
Antony only met Octavia once, maybe twice in passing, so I don't know why it's recorded they were married. But the thought that she ended up with C&As children came from O when he was giving his account of what happened at their murders.
O wasn't arrested after the murders because there were no bodies (or heads) as proof, it was VERY important since Anthony was a high gov't official that Rome's proof of death customes were followed. So the most Rome would admit to was Antony was missing.
O wanted the women and some others who might know where the tomb was, killed. At first he was going to destroy the evidence and when he couldn't, he realized that the evidence being hidden worked just as well for him.
When Jules was murdered the police wouldn't even interview O, they wanted the names of the men who did the actual stabbing. I just think that was their law, go after the one who murders not the one who plots it. So I did tell one of the policemen (a close friend of Jules and Antony) and Antony who I thought was responsible. And with no evidence....
O maintained throughout his life that he didn't know what happened to our family. He spoke with Antony but didn't murder anyone, even suggested that C&A left Egypt with their kids, embezzling from the two countries. He came up with many ideas saying if the the children were found they could be raised by his sister. He would hold no grudge for the trouble this scandal was causing him.
Egypt's side of the story was you were murdered, Phil was murdered, I killed myself, Actium happened (but on a much smaller scale), and the capture of the priestesses. With such a high body count, our children's murders fell by the wayside. Most of the information of our murders and Actium were Ritchie's account (I still need his name), the rest was from other witnesses.
Rome discounted it all as rumors. Egypt didn't lose the country to Rome right away. There were no successors appointed after us because no one wanted the job with O killing as he did, and because there wasn't anyone who could replace us.
Positions were still filled but they had no spiritual governing, no spiritual leaders. It took about twenty years for Egypt to convert over to Roman. I see this as a concession from Rome toward Egypt for their loss.
Egypt would never have turned over our bodies to Rome and being mummified would not work as Roman I'd. Not only did Egypt not trust Rome, but they believed in the next life having a chance to settle things. They believed strongly in karma.
It took twenty years too, because O didn't want Egypt. He never thought it was worth anything. At a dinner party one night, he was saying as much to me. Cicero was asking me how I was enjoying Rome compared to Egypt.
Toward the end of the conversation others joined in with O saying he considered Egypt backward, it needed too much to fix it to his liking. I shrugged his opinions off saying, "Rome wasn't built in a day." And Cicero and Antony suggested O should visit the country before making judgments.
At that same dinner I told Cicero I found that in Italy "All roads lead to Rome." Jules and I just returned from what was a work trip for him and a vacation for me. He said the roads were in such poor shape and he next asked me what I thought of Rome. I told him that as a way to say that Rome, and Alexandria, were very cosmopolitan.
Cicero even asked about my clothes, he was expecting to find me in an Egyptian style dress, after all Jules first wife kept to her customs. I told him "When in Rome, do as the Romans do." I was saying that I felt it important to follow the customs of whatever country you are trying to make your home.
As a side note, much was made of C learning Egyptian. This was because C was born and raised in Egypt by Greek parents. Egypt loved that C was raised as one of their own and not an outsider.
Cicero was a charming and funny man who like Jules and Antony was very patriotic. He was still alive at our murders but was newly retired. He was going blind from a tumor, and died a year after our murders.
The land divide between Antony and O stemmed from there being two different political parties. This was starting to evolve even before Jules death. Even though there were other senators in these parties Antony and O were seen mostly as their party's leader.
You might say it was their fight.
After our deaths Rome dissolved their two party system. Most in Rome believed that the nation was more divided because a house divided will fall, or something close to this. I didn't say it so I can't be certain how that saying went :) but they were trying to reverse whatever was happening that led to our murders.
Ari thinks you need to know that I'll be getting D's old computer soon, don't know exactly when. Until later, L.
The story of Antony leaving his work to follow C's litter like a puppy, happened when she was in labor with Antony's first son. She was working in the library and stopped on her way home to pick up Antony. He was there for all of the babies.
It is also entirely true that Antony's political party gave O large sums of money on several occasions. Antony's political investments in other countries was paying off for Rome and O and his political party needed repeated bail outs to help theirs. Realize that A's money went to Rome and Rome gave it to O. A would never willingly help O, someone else made that call.
Wanting to wish everyone a good night. L.
Can't remember if I told you this before, when Antony died he was 45. If Jules had survived his muder he would have only been 48 at the time of our death, Ritchie was 44 when he died.
Jules is usually thought of as an older man in most of his lifetimes because the word that's used to describe him most often is "mature" which is actually talking about his personality.
Ok, good night again. L.
When I said:
"When A&C were alive nobody believed A was a drunk or a womanizer, and C wasn't a murdering bitch. Those stories came well after O, but originated from whatever country Peter was ruling at C&As death."
I meant most of the stories of C's bad habits, like poisoning prisoners, came from Peters country.
The graphic letter on page 342 wasn't written by Antony addressing his affairs. It was actually written in response to a complaint O had that Antony was using his favorite psychic for his work.
He didn't like that Antony was discussing state secrets with me. He felt this was giving Egypt unfair advantage to profits they weren't earning or entitled to. And it was a belief he couldn't let go of, even killing our children because he thought I could give answers so easily.
Antony was saying "she's my wife, of course I'm going to talk to her about my work." And we really didn't do much of that either, Antony was very competent, he really didn't need me. Plus I have no real interest in politics, but we did on occasion work together.
Except for Livia, the other names in the letter are of other psychics. Because of Antony's successes O decided to try using psychics too.
"Why have you changed?" Was Antony was asking O why he changed his mind about using psychics. O didn't realize Antony knew about this until O made one too many complaints...He probably thought the information came from me. Which it didn't, I found O so upsetting most never mentioned him in front of me.
Livia was pregnant and in an unhappy marriage and O decided he needed a ready made heir because of his problem.
The story of me drinking the pearl in vinegar, was mostly true too, and it was my engagement ring. Antony was asking me to marry him at dinner. He dropped the ring in my wine glass when I wasn't looking wanting to see how long it would take for me to notice.
When I finally saw it he said since I waited so long to notice it, I had to hurry and drink the wine quickly before it dissolved or marked the pearl. I told him if he wanted me to pay attention to my wine, he should have ordered us a better bottle.
Ah, such good times back then!
Need to stop for a bit...we are having heavy rain most of today. I plan on being back, unless the power goes out.
Until then. L.
Spent an hour or more reading my books on Joanne with nothing sparking a new memory. Must say I'm disappointed. So I wish you a good night plus L.
Did you guys know that Antony and O were related? Distant cousins. I think that was the reason Antony was made O's guardian of sorts after Jules died. Plus Antony was the executor of Jules' will. Antony did this for two years after the murder until O became of age.
But Jules was also O's guardian before his murder. O's mother died when he was about 13, and his father was gone for whatever reason before that.
Jules named O his heir because to be a senator you had to have a will on file. L.
O was rich even without Jules money. Jules was managing O's and O's sister's inheritance and was their guardian, but lived some hours away from them. Jules and O never saw much of each other until after Jules and I married.
A didn't know O until Jules was married, but he knew O's parents.
I think I talked about or hinted that for global warming/earth changes, there is a change in space, perhaps a slight pressure change of some kind, that triggers the cold and warm trends. They do trend, but the ones I'm thinking of are on a longer time scale...Something is triggering mine, so wouldn't there be something triggering the earths?
I know mine has a timing attached to it, and since time changes in outer space, maybe the earth feels a pressure or some other force? The larger timing of mine is follows the seasons, or is it the moon eclipses right now. Then there is the day to day timing of food, sleep and more.
I know mine start from within and can feel the build up or "pressure" generating strongly enough in my heart chakra (or am I just feeling the chakra opening up?) and from there the pressure or energy feeling travels the length of my arms into my hands. Then the sweating and flames. Ok, so the pressure I feel opens the chakra for the flames.
I know too that some, like Tyberonn, talk a lot of the energy centers on Earth, but what the centers and their energy does never seemed that important to me for some reason. Maybe because I believe the engery centers are more easily seen on Gaia (some call it Tara), earth's astral body. And while the energy centers play a role on earth, after Atlantis it was mostly a dormant one.
I also believe that Earth and Gaia are blending together again, but not to the extreme of the 1/2 solid 1/2 dream world of Atlantis, but close. Some individuals with 'miracle' type energy will be realized first, then for more decades the Earth finishes her changes, and because of the Earth changing, others will be more psychic/telepathic.
What do you guys think? Brig my Love, stop cracking your knuckles.
I was told you guys were meeting with Ari today, so have a good time. Sorry to Brigg too, but I still feel a strong need to show off...it's a sickness really. :)
Many believe Mary Magdalen brought the Holy Grail to France. But if you think Mary Magdalen was herself the Holy Grail, then you are closer to the truth. MM And John brought much to France with their beliefs and their children. Through Sarah both Morgan and Joanne were born, and their beliefs were of reincarnation and "treat others with the same respect you want from them."
It was the murder of Isis that sealed France's fate as an important one. France was a strong holdout in the War vs. Religion theme. It rejected both. Wanting instead to remain living in the old and more peaceful ways which was living a lifestyle by a philosophy and individual spiritual peace. They intended to do this for as long as they could.
The "Everyone must work for money" had been around for awhile, but most of the fights and disagreements came from many new laws. No more trade and no more gifts between governments. Everything must be bought and sold. Most were losing their psychic gifts and the money system was seen as inevitable for us all.
The war part came because not enough people were using the money system. If everyone didn't start using it, the system would fail and it was looked to the spiritualists to encourage the switch.
The money system was not seen as a bad system as much as it was thought a bit premature. Some were ready to use it and some weren't, and those who still had much psychic ability were forced to do double duty, or both jobs.
France was invaded and Isis killed because both were seen as the strongest holdouts. They were expected to last for a good number of years.
The moon was cut because Horus and the Atlantian leader wanted credit for implementing the money system, and they wanted credit for it while they were still alive in that lifetime. They thought they were saving the world, offering this solution, and it was cut for no other reason than that. Once the moon was cut things started to happen very quickly.
People became confused and misinterpreted one another because their endocrine systems were changing, they were losing their psychic abilities. Lies were believed as truth, because you could no longer tell if the words were lie or truth. Giving people the benefit of doubt was another big teaching.
For Horus, on a spiritual level, he supported the killing to start the use of money. He saw this as a great spiritual loophole, since he did not commit a crime.
It is also his money system that brought him down spiritually. The same loophole used over and over again showed God a repeated desire to kill, even though he himself did not do the killing. God seemed to think Horus was just as guilty as the actual murderer, because money changed hands, he was buying a persons death. And it taxed him.
When Joanne was in prison she cautioned Cauchon that her death would seal his fate. That "he was damning himself to save himself." She told him this because Peter wanted her death just like Cauchon, but Cauchon was going about it more cautiously, more superstitiously, and he was feeling pressure from Peter to act. But realize, both wanted her dead.
The "damning yourself to save yourself" was what upset Peter when he read her transcripts after she died.
When she told Cauchon her death would be his downfall, he simply said "We'll see." in an 'I don't believe you tone'. Then he told her he was going to have her raped. The guidelines he gave her guards were, "Do what you want, try not to kill her yet, but make it hurt." The next day she was attacked.
After that, Cauchon and her guards used the rape threat often, wanting her to denounce her Saints to avoid another rape. And denouncing her voices would be death for her. That Joanne believed she would be raped again because they were telling her this seemed to fall on the deaf ears for her prison nurse. But, at least I have her pity. (Bitch.)
When Joanne was captured Cauchon told her guards told not to touch Joanne unless he approved it. If they harmed her without his approval, he could not guarantee absolution. They felt they had every reason to believe him, so they obeyed him.
Peter was the Ayatollah Isis saw in France. That he took it upon himself to be there is when he first heard the "damning himself to save himself" explanation. It wasn't until Joanne didn't burn that Peter wanted to read the interrogation transcripts. Before then he was too busy a man to get involved in church affairs.
Don't know if you will see me tomorrow, D and I have to pack up Nana's few things at her nursing home.
I met her when she was in her early 80's and in our first conversation she said very clearly that she didn't want to live to be 100. She wanted to make sure everyone knew this.
Her husband died in the early or mid 1970s and she lived in her nursing home for over 30 years. She used to be with us too when we had O and his sister. She and I used to work on our needle work together then. I loved it when she would be there.
These last few years there wasn't much of her here. She was no longer speaking, hearing and seeing, but she was still able to feed herself.
Ari said she woke up laying in a bed to see her husband, son, parents, sister and even D's mom, who is going to ask her for some help and she will be crying when she asks.
There will be a small gravesite prayer next Saturday with maybe only 4 people, sad.
We saw her last Sat, a strange coincidence I'm sure. That morning D said he had a dream he was walking in the street and saw her. She came over and gave him a hug.
I asked him if he was going to regret not having a funeral for her, he said, "No, I don't need a funeral. If she wants to see us, she can come visit anytime."
I'll let you know if that happens! Good Night from L.
The engagement ring was pearl surrounded with onyx.
Clemens gave his wife a heart shaped pearl pin, also surrounded in onyx for her 35th birthday.
I could use a heart shaped onyx necklace surrounded with pearls. Keep your eyes out for one :)
After Jules died, the political divide in Rome became even greater and many were frustrated because of it. Antony left Rome not from the growing divide, but for his job with the Senate. He was expected to leave.
Travel was a mandatory part of the job, and there were laws in place to remain a Senator. One law was a senator must inspect and grow his territories. Another was there must be an updated will in place before a senator inspected his territories. And that will was to be reviewed by a council to protect Rome.
The morning Jules died, he was on his way to meet the council and sign his new will. Jules and I were getting ready to return to Egypt. Antony and Ritchie were there that morning because they had big roles in his new will and were to testify to their agreement if anything should happen to Jules from illness or death.
The will stated that if Jules died, Antony would be an acting senator until Phil was of age. As it was Antony was eligible to become a senator, and was waiting for a position to open.
Positions opened when a senator died or retired without appointing an heir, and the heir must be a blood relative who qualified for the position. It was rare for a senator to not appoint an heir, but it did happen.
Shortly after Octavian became a senator, Antony did too. And he was an acting senator for Octavian until he became of age and qualified.
When I met Antony for the first time he was in the army and my father was traveling with them from Rome to Egypt. The army was picking up a money transfer among other things, and Antony's job was to take the money safely back to Rome. These trips were common and routine, and for government officials like my father, they were the safest and quickest way to travel.
Neither Jules nor Antony were senators when I met them and Jules was never in the army, but started out working for his father. When I met Jules, he was his father's deputy, his biggest aide.
Antony's father worked in government as an ambassador, and when Pompey died, Antony, who already left the army, became Jules' deputy. L.
A fix:
After Jules died, the political divide in Rome became even greater and many were frustrated because of it. It was Antony who said at Jules' funeral "A house divided will fall."
Antony left Rome not from the growing divide, but for his job with the Senate. He was expected to leave.
Hope to be back later this morning. L.
About my fairy godmother......I fired her.
Antony was never short of feminine attention, and he knew he was handsome. He was leaving the army and thought he should now look for a wife. Sappho had an endearing personality and was well thought of by most people. So when Antony was traveling with her father, he listened to her father's stories of his daughter and thought, "Well, maybe...." until her saw her.
Sappho was sitting at a table on a terrace beading a necklace. I barely noticed a bird call and kept working. I heard it again and my voices said, "Someone is trying to get your attention." "Who?" I wondered and when I heard "An old friend of yours." I stopped my work at the third whistle, walked over to the bushes where the bird was and said, " Come out little birdie and let me see you, you sound very sick today! Did you have a bad breakfast?"
Antony stood up and climbed over the railing saying "Really? You think my bird call sounded sick? I just won a contest with that call yesterday." and I took a step back. When I realized I didn't know him, I glanced in the bushes and saw he was alone, and wondered what my voices were up to.
I looked from him to the doorway, there was a small noise at the front of the house and when I did that, Antony spread his arms open and said, "I'm not going to hurt you, I was just with your father. He said I could cut through your yard."
"Daddy's home?" I brightened at the thought. He had been gone some weeks and I missed him. When my dad stepped from the house I ran and hugged him tight, "So you met my daughter!"
"Yes Sir, she said my bird call sounded sick. I feel like I should give you your beer money back." He turned to me say, "Your dad was telling me all about you on our trip, can you really tell the future? I'm ready to leave the army and I want to find a good job, get married and have a family. Is all of that likely?"
I laughed and told him "I'm not a fortune teller, but I'm told you can have all of those things as soon as you stop hiding in the bushes."
My dad laughingly hugged me tighter and said, "See? I told you she was clever!" And when I invited Antony to stay for dinner, he declined saying, "I'm sure you want to catch up with your father tonight." "Tomorrow then?" He said he had other plans and he left, and I knew something was wrong.
I wondered why I was told he was an old friend when we'd never met before, but I was convinced that we were important to one another and our futures linked. My voices told me this. So I was depressed and upset when I learned Antony left Egypt without my seeing him again, and even more so when I heard he was engaged. And when I heard he was married, I quietly but tearfully accepted the news.
Antony left both Egypt and the army when he was twenty two and I was just sixteen. I wouldn't see him again for another five years, until I and arrived in Rome with my husband and son.
Good nite, sleep well. L.
I met Jules at seventeen, his wife was murdered the year before and his trip to Egypt was the first time he left Rome since her death. He met with my father on business, then asked if he could speak to me on a personal matter. My father knew why, he was still in Rome when the murder happened.
Jules became well known in Roman circles when he returned from Turkey with his new wife. When she moved to Rome she kept her veils in place, many were curious and from their curiosity many were drawn to her.
Her father thought it best to send her two maids with her so she would had friendly faces for her company. Their marriage was one of love, her father noticed their love early and suggested the marriage.
After the three women arrived in Rome they secretly explored their new life dressing as Roman women. While her friends liked their new freedoms, Jules' wife only did this a couple of times and never felt comfortable without a veil. That she was kidnapped for her beauty and sent to Troy was not know to her or anyone until Sappho met Jules.
When Jules returned home he found her maids murdered inside the house, and everything that could be broken or tipped over was. When he couldn't find his wife he ran outside and started calling for her and knocking on doors. Neighbors came at hearing him and helped him search.
Part of Jules' heartbreak was the distance his wife ran to get away from her attackers. When Jules' wife heard things breaking inside and a smothered scream she moved toward the house, and when her and one of the men saw each other through a window, she took off running into the woods.
She was almost seven months pregnant and was found almost a quarter of a mile from her home. And because she was home when the attack occurred she had no veils, all three of her killers saw her face.
This is a pretty good book! Won't be back until later, so go about your day with my L.
Did you know that Octavian and Sappho were the same age? L.
Sappho told Jules all of this when he asked what happened to his wife. After she told him everything she saw, he agreed that from the crime scene that was what happened.
His next question was "Why?" She told him it wasn't a robbery, it was personal. He agreed nothing was taken and asked, "Did they have trouble of some kind they didn't tell me about?" "No. They didn't know their killers, but there's someone who is angry at parts of your work."
So, we believed the murders had political roots. Jules wondered if they were there to murder him but found his wife instead. I told Jules I believed he was safe. The murders, in the killer's mind, gave him what he was after and the women were the original target, not him. We thought from this the murders might be a protest of Jules' Turkish efforts.
He asked next of his very real dreams. She wanted him to know she was shocked and scared when she died, but that she is adapting to her new life. And I said, "that she is communicating with you should prove it. It should put you in some ease."
I explained that the most fearful parts of his dreams about her, were her sharing her fear at her murder. Sometimes when you ask to know how they are, or long for your departed loved one, they will share their feelings instead of words. It's a very efficient way of communicating.
For Jules, she was sending him strong feelings of "It was pretty scary at first, but I'm doing better now. I have friends and family with me that are a help." He had three dreams of his wife, and in his last dream she was telling him she was watching over him for the rest of his life. "She is acting as one of your spirit guides." I added, and explained they were in a sense still married, but a different kind of marriage.
When Jules tears started, he asked about their baby. I told him it was a boy and when his emotion left him unable to speak, I filled the void by telling him his son was strong willed and still determined to be a part of Jules' life.
He will again be his first son in his next marriage. He'll have two mothers because of this, his birth mother and his murdered mother as his spirit guide too.
I explained having his murdered mother help raise him will have a soothing affect for both of their psyches or souls. This was important because his son is a very smart and very strong psychic. And because he senses beyond this world so strongly, he will find her a comfort, sensing that he has a different birth mother than originally planned. And she is to look at this as not having left her family, but that their relationship changed or altered slightly.
It was then that my father spoke of his illness to Jules, asking for his help. And as it was my turn to fight tears, Jules asked, "You didn't know your dad was sick?" I admitted I did know, but didn't know he was now planning for his death.
Thought you might be interested to know that I'm still feeling the heat, but I've also felt the knob in my back turning on two occasions since I first told you about it. It's been very soft and subtle so far, not strong at all. The second time just happened that's why I'm talking about it now.
I still don't know what the knob feeling is exactly. I believe the heat comes as an energy burst through the chakra which is located in the middle of me, and radiates outward to the surface (front and back) of me as heat. Omnidirectional.
But the knob feeling is different and distinct, it doesn't flow outward. It seems to be on the surface and center of my back and I feel it turning as a tingling sensation that turns/tingles clockwise. So if the feeling is coming via a chakra, it has a completely different feel, and is unidirectional.
I wonder if it has something to do with my spine. It feels like it could be some kind of astral connection....
Have a good evening and Good Nite!
My father told us that his symptoms had progressed and while he felt he still had some time, he would soon retire to relax and enjoy what he could. And since Jules was running the Roman embassy, our Roman liaison, he wanted him to understand our family situation and problems that could occur. I watched Jules closely as he promised my father that he would give us his help and support. And I believed him.
As we rose for Jules to take his leave, another meeting was suggested to understand more of what was needed, and when he was invited to dinner, he accepted.
It was a Roman custom in those days that when a man greeted or parted from a woman, they were to take her hand and bow low over it while looking up at her. He was to say his greetings or goodbyes and kiss her hand. And I was very surprised when Jules did this with me.
When he bowed over my hand he looked up and said, "I'm glad I had this chance to talk with you. I never had such a beautiful interpreter before." And he kissed my hand as I flushed and squirmed my embarrassment over his compliment. My father who had his arm around me to console my tears, laughed at my reaction, hugging me tighter to him.
Psychics were in those days called interpreters. They translate many things, colors, sound, touch, and more. Each are seen as a world or system, mostly of thought, and all are forms of communication.
For example, if you said something in a system that spoke in color you would see the colors change and blend differently forming each word. And a word spoken softly in love would be a different color and intensity than the same word spoken in hate, you see?
That a child could color a purple tree and have it make perfect sense to themselves, even explaining it to you, gives you one understanding of how some psychics pull their information for a reading. It also gives you an understanding of what worlds the child is most familiar.
So it was true Cleopatra spoke many languages, but what they are mostly referring to were her psychic languages.
A small fix: "And since Jules was running the Roman embassy, our Roman liaison,"
And since Jules was running the Roman embassy and also my father's Roman liaison,
If ever a thread was hijacked with utter meaninglessness, this is it!
Whoever is writing all the past lives shit, you're not helping Bachman's case. Obviously, you're hung up on the guy - but you're making him look bat-shit crazy. He's gotta be really pissed at you.
I agree!
Did you know that your chakra system is an energy system that floats or hovers with your physical body? I say that because when I feel the heat, sometimes it's more toward the left, sometimes the right, or even higher and lower than at other times.
Also I didn't realize Brig was that into astronomy, I knew he had an interest but I was told he dropped out of college after one semester. Sorry I believed that, Brig. And I still don't see a divorce even when I've had enough time to get used to the idea. After all, who can't get along with Yogi and Bell? It just doesn't make any sense to me.
Getting back to the hovering chakra system, it's connected electrically to your physical body with fingers of electricity to your heart, neck/throat, head, etc. and the major chakras contain glands, but not all...
I hope you are having a happy Halloween. Good night & L.
The lower major chakras don't need glands, they use your nervous system. It feels this way when I feel the energy from the heat traveling down my arms to my hands.
I also remember reading once that C was to have painted the soles of her feet and the palms of her hands when she had her face painted for ceremonies. Just another fun fact brought to you by The Corners.
And painting her soles and palms were part of her springtime celebration of renewal.
Good Morning! Haven't had much to say lately, and I have Ds computer. I plan on using both, but we'll see how that works out. So far I'm not liking it. Wanted to let you know I haven't forgotten about you guys. L.
I'm reading pg 214 of Goldsworthy A&C and it says there were false reports that C perished on the journey home, but as I said before that was the fear she and others had for her and Phil, and why Ritchie alone was taking them home. It was also clear to everyone that someone was at ease with murdering Jules and his family. And the delay to see if C was pregnant was also a delay in executing Jules' will, which was frustrating to Octavian.
Jules's old will stated money for "care and comfort" for his children at the time of his death, but at the time this was written there were no children. This will was written and used even before his first marriage, and the clause was typical for any will. The whole battle over his will, both before and after his death, was to remove Octavian from it completely.
In the old will, Octavian would get more than half of Jules' estate if he became a senator and only if he became a senator, otherwise it was to go to Phil. And I'm not sure why. The will did not provide a "care and comfort" provision for Octavian and Octavia because they already had that from their parents.
The two weren't raised together after they were 10 and 12 years old. They were never close, never cared much for one another, and the only time Octavia showed herself to anyone was when she needed money or other support to get something she wanted, write a letter or make a visit, and all on her behalf.
Before Jules died, she went to him when she wanted anything, then she went to Antony for her money and influence and that is what is confusing history into saying they were married. After Antony, she was forced to go to Octavian, which she did briefly, and when that didn't work well for her, she married.
She never hid her negative emotions, acting mostly in outbursts, while her brother hid his to strike. I spoke to Jules many times about the two and the only solution he came up with was to limit their access to our house. It was better than nothing, and at times a big help to me.
Octavia was raised by a governess after their mother died using the "care and comfort" clause and by that time Octavian was placed in a boarding school then a military college, and as the only son, he was to inherit the entirety of their parents estate.
He was raised by no one, is very book smart, but is as dumb as they come with common sense. So when he reached college he became popular by falling in and then funding the wrong group of friends. He had both money and family status from his parents and uncle. He would brag about becoming a senator and as long as he supported their activities he was in charge.
Their activities were drugs, alcohol, and many big ideas, so when there was concern of Octavian not becoming a senator because of another child, they decided to act on one of those ideas. Killing Jules and his first wife was not Octavian's idea. Killing Sappho was, until one of his friends made him see that Jules would marry again.
There is someone here, who met Octavian in college and wanted nothing to do with him, was repulsed...don't know yet who. Many wanted to be in his crowd, but this one knew him as an ass and was a college rival, then his biggest problem after Antony's murder. He took information or confidence from Cicero to become that. Shouldn't be hard to figure out, and a surprise that he lived....a big story there!
When Octavian was told about a new will, he spoke with Sappho at dinner. He would stay with us only a couple times a year on school breaks, the idea was that he would start working with Jules so when he graduated he would be ready to hold a position helping him.
He wondered in front of everyone about Phil's future. Sappho confirmed that Phil would be working in Alexandria, she also confirmed that she and Jules were planning more children, hoping for four, perhaps five. She glanced at Octavian and was surprised to see he was stressed, angry and now very quiet.
Octavian was reluctant to killing Jules, but he saw no other way to becoming a senator. He was encouraged by his college friends wanting positions under his future command, and the three or four of those were Jules' assassins.
I know that Tim was Sappho's brother, but in my travels of her life so far I don't see him around. Perhaps he was a half brother. I know when I met Jules and Antony, it was just my dad and I and it had been that way for a long time. We had a housekeeper who helped cooked and clean but didn't live with us. Ok, he was at least five years older than Sappho and he was alive at the time of her death, how about that!
Sappho had two brothers, the one that drowned was in his mid teens from a boating accident and Sappho was about three or four when that happened. And I don't think either brother had a gov't position.
When Sappho was five her mother died quickly and so soon after her sons accident, and her father acted as both mother and father to her. Tim left our home to study something somewhere before our mother passed. He never moved back home after his schooling was over, spending only holidays with us, so for the longest time it was me and my dad.
My dad did everything for the two of us when he could, with our housekeeper filling the gaps, and both my father and our housekeeper, who I loved like a grandmother, kept my mother's memory alive for me, telling me stories of her over and over and patiently answering every question I had about her. And Antony and I did the same for Phil.
The bottom of page 242 in Goldsworthy draws parallels between Isis' and Cleopatra's lives. Isis foretold parts of Cleopatra's life. She wanted Sappho to remember her. Isis never had children, was never married and had no family beyond childhood. She was...not a wonderer, but traveled a lot for a living and to avoid Horus. And yes, I believe his name wasn't Horus, but will keep calling him that until I figure out what it was. If I ever do.
Much of Isis's life story is allegory, mostly definitely the part where her husband is hacked to pieces. I'm told parts of her life were happy but I don't like looking at Isis and her life. It's sad.
The three worlds she lived in had different rules, similar in appearance but operated differently, and she seems to have been alone a lot in that life, no family. Most everything I've seen about it causes me stress, but like I said, I know it had some good parts.
Her three worlds were the world still following the old way of life, the newer world with the changes Horus was forcing, and the world unique to Isis and few others: her voices.
I remember Osiris, we knew each other very briefly, a month or so. We were young and had an affair and because he was married to someone else, he left. A friend of mine disapproved of my relationship with him and told me he was married. I didn't realize this because as she said, "It was all over the Internet!" but I didn't use or rely on the Internet or computers. I avoided them so I wouldn't get caught, you might say I lived off grid. :) Osiris also said when I found out "the wedding was all over the Internet. I'm sorry, I thought you knew." and we parted.
There were many new ideas involved in that lifetime, one was the idea of marriage. Some were for it and some were against it. It was meant to protect the man if his wife were a spiritualist, she would be honor bound to support him. And it was meant to protect the woman if her husband was involved in the new money system. These are generalities, but both worlds were told they had reason to believe in it.
In Osiris' case, he married a woman who believed in it as a new idea because she was a follower of Horus and somewhat stupid. He told Isis his wife was now following Horus' idea of chastity and she didn't care what he did. By the time Osiris met Isis he hadn't seen his wife in two or three years, he said it was over. And the idea of divorce wasn't even thought of yet.
Because Atlantis was on a moral decline, marriage was said to be one of its many moral fixes, and chastity was just perfect. Horus, by promoting the use of marriage was actually trying to curb sex lives. His goal is always "be like me so I can look normal." The problems from bad marriages like Osiris' were not problems to him. He just wants to be right and thinks forcing his will to be adopted proves him right. So by forcing marriage, he also, in some cases, forced a diminished sex life.
Isis, already at odds with Horus but not yet at war (she wasn't being hunted yet), couldn't continue with Osiris much as she loved him, because if Horus or anyone knew about their affair, she would have been publicly scorned and would have lost everything. To be with a man who promised himself to another woman would give Horus what he needed to cause more rebellion and anger against Isis. To remove her supporters for good.
Isis met D a year or so after her relationship with Osiris was ended. They never married, they felt they didn't need to, staying together until D's death in S&G along with Osiris and many of her friends and some family too.
This isn't the complete story of events, I know that there is a lot missing here, like Isis didn't have a following that I know of. She was participating and preserving a way of life, and considered herself to be not as much a leader, but a member. Horus pointed to her as a leader because she thought he was wrong and when she spoke to him, he felt he needed to publicly argue and say her ideas were wrong.
A fix: "Osiris also said when I found out "the wedding was all over the Internet. I'm sorry, I thought you knew." and we parted."
Should say: Osiris also said when I found out "the wedding was all over the Internet. I'm sorry, I thought you knew." and we parted, but not exactly right away.
L. & Good Night. Have fun tonight.
While many people wonder why psychics don't win the lottery, I've wondered many times why Joanne sat in prison to later die, why Helen was left to be repeatedly raped and tortured in Troy for almost a year, and why Sappho had no warning of their massacre.
The answer for the most part is because what happens on Earth stays on Earth, especially if you are astrally confined. The force of God, or the force of Karma will give you every opportunity to work your differences out between yourselves.
You have heard the saying God (and Jesus) loves everyone? That is because we all carry the life force of All That Is, he will not take that away from you no matter what, and you are in total and complete charge of how you care for yourself. You can be as spiritually strong or as weak as you choose, both here on Earth and in the Heavens. And how you handle yourself on Earth plays a big role in your health in Heaven.
All That Is sees no difference in Joanne or Cauchon, even to this day. But there is a difference between us, it's just not a permanent one. You see? Cauchon can heal himself by making himself spiritually stronger anytime he chooses.
And please take notice of my meaning: when I use the the word 'spiritual' I mean simply to mind your manners. They are important. Did you not know the meaning of loving your enemy is simply that? Do you see it now? And because some are so hurt and pained both physically and emotionally they are their own worst enemy.
There is science behind what I say. Can I give you the math formula? No, but my Einstein can, and he can do more than that in one lifetime, and do you know why? Because I took the time to care for, and heal myself, and because I took the time to do that, he is able to reach deeper into himself to then reach the cosmos for the answers. We are connected, he and I, and he can tell you how better that I.
His knowledge has been sitting in a prison, like Joanne was, waiting for the strength of God to open and be exposed to him, and by that I mean he will reach and read the answers for us. And by making our peace with one another we all are making the journey easier for him. You see? Without the tension and hate from everyone, the cosmos relaxes and is easier to navigate.
Until Einstein can reach the answers, there will be many ideas that will serve as his stepping stones. So we all need to progress and heal our sorrows. Do you know that I am only a stepping stone for him? He already knows the answers I give to you now? Einstein has said and has acted as a pacifist so he knows subjectively. He is close, you see?
There will be others he will use in both math, science, and spirituality and all will be as important to him as these words are, no matter that there will be little or no fanfare for some of his stepping stones. I tell you to keep up your good work, it all counts in was you don't know, but will be shown.
Did you know the name 'Jesus' was a typo? John's French wasn't as good as it should have been.
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Je suis was what he meant to say, but it came out as Jesus. The great 'I Am'.
Have a great day today! Love from your Audrey.
A fix for these paragraphs. They weren't complete enough for my liking. Unless of course you, as my editor, think these add ons don't add much, then just forget I said anything :) but please feel free to rearrange the paragraphs if you think they need it.
"You have heard the saying God (and Jesus) loves everyone? That is because we all carry the life force of All That Is, he will not take that away from you no matter what, and you are in total and complete charge of how you care for yourself. You can be as spiritually strong or as weak as you choose, both here on Earth and in the Heavens. And how you handle yourself on Earth plays a big role in your health in Heaven."
Remember the saying, "On Earth as it is in Heaven"? The two are unbelievably intertwined, and this is a clue for anyone writing a math formula. Parts of your formulas for Heaven hold Earthly components to them and vise versa. And the amount of Earthly component diminishes as you travel farther in the Heavens. Just remember that God works at the source of all events. So when events happen on Earth they have a residual affect in the Heavens and again vise versa, but God will help the source wherever it originates.
Because we are created from, and carry the same All That Is gene or force, God or All That Is "sees no difference in Joanne or Cauchon, even to this day. But there is a difference between us, it's just not a permanent one. You see? Cauchon can heal himself by making himself spiritually stronger anytime he chooses." And this is God's forgiveness, it is for Cauchon to take for himself just as he took the lives of so many.
And please take notice of my meaning: when I use the the word 'spiritual' I mean simply to mind your manners. They are important. Did you not know the meaning of loving your enemy is simply that? Do you see it now? And because some are so hurt and pained both physically and emotionally they are their own worst enemy. Remember to love yourself, be fair to yourself in the process.
When I say "mind your manners" I am speaking to everyone from murders and rapists to those involved in more civilized disputes and calmer disagreements.
Manners are important right down to the type of language you use. And let me tell you another fact: You and only you are in charge of your behavior. If you find the spirit moving you, if you find voices telling you to do something good or bad, you are in charge of your behavior. If you feel you need help, get it. Ari and I, and on occasion Armand try to act as a team. We all agreed to this before my birth, but I am always responsible for my behavior, as are you.
And when I say watch your language, I'm not talking of being politically correct, some seem to enjoy always being offended by something. I'm talking about settling differences or using certain words to prove your point at the expense of someone's feelings.
Words hold meanings beyond their definitions, their vibrations reach into the Heavens long after the audible sound is gone, and at this point can even blend into emotion. This is another world, another one of Sappho's languages.
I have asked myself why is it "The meek shall inherit the Earth." and not the righteous? It's the language they use. Do you see the difference? Meek as Jesus used it was to describe a gentle person and not so much a submissive one.
So I f you say or think to yourself, "I know I shouldn't have said or done that, but I just don't care!" That's a clue that you need to examine, find the reason why you don't care. Do you not care about the person, are you not loving you enemy? And when you look for these answers, remember some healings are life lessons. So please remember it can take time to start caring, but always try to move in that direction.
If you feel the need to take breaks, or distance yourself for awhile, do so. I took over 25 years to make my peace with Cauchon. I had many breaks during that time, and when I hear from him my anger returns. This is normal and will it stay for this way for some time yet into the future. It helps that I'm told he will keep his distance from me, so there is peace.
Cauchon's process is not the ascension process I went through. The steps he takes will naturally be different from mine, and they do have an ascension side affect. We want him to ascend, but he has to unbury himself first, and to do that he has to admit that there were wrongs he committed and persistently remove his negative thinking. He has to do this over and over again until it becomes his second nature over lifetimes.
He will be admitting he made mistakes mostly using actions and not words, and no matter, it will still hurt. That is not my condemning him, that is just how it is. The pain will help him remember his past, just like my pain helped me remember mine. And please remember the good that is coming from our pain when you feel your own.
"There is science behind what I say. Can I give you...."
Hope this sounds understandable. I've had a headache for two days now and I'm having some trouble with my writing because of it. L.
Good Morning to you My Love!!!
I was rereading Sappho and Jules discussing his first wife's murder. When the attacks happened Octavian knew of the pregnancy but there was no mention from anyone of a will change when the women were killed. Jules planned to see if the baby was a boy first, then change his will.
When Octavian's friends heard of the pregnancy they encouraged the murder, believing they were protecting their futures.
For Sappho, she was the one who told Octavian at dinner that she and Jules were trying for another child...and also told him of the new will being drawn up.
He was asking about the future of the children and she said that her next baby would be following in his father's footsteps as a senator. When Octavian mentioned he was to have the position, she paused and stared at him for a moment saying "Do you really think it's fair to take away a birth right?" I guess he did...
And while Jules was at the same dinner, he either didn't hear the conversation or didn't want a part of it, because he said nothing.
The dinner started innocently enough. Phil was on my lap babbling, he and I were sharing a plate at the table. Jules was farther away, left and at the end, Octavian sat directly across from me and Antony was seated to his right. I see that all so clearly :) but there were others there too, and I can't see them so I don't know who they are yet. I do know they were working with Jules and Antony. And I expect Cicero to be one.
Antony was going through his divorce, doting on Phil and wanting children of his own, he said something to do about when Jules and I have more. Octavian who just arrived for his school break picked up on it. He listened quietly for a while and I told everyone who was listening how excited I was of our plans.
I said it would be the big family I wanted while I was growing up and when Antony asked if I was hoping for a girl this time, I said "I'm having another boy next."
Right away Octavian challenged me, asking how I could be so sure when I haven't even conceived yet. We had some discussion before, he and I, and he made very sure I knew he didn't believe in psychics. So I didn't respond beyond a "You'll see."
He asked about the baby's future, hoping since Phil was to work in Alexandria his brother would too. So I explained, the baby's future. When Octavian brought up the will naming him, I explained that Jules' son also deserved the chance to work with his father.
Antony spoke up then adding the will was about to expire anyway, circumstances change all the time, and anyway, Octavian "you already have money and a good name of your own. Take the time to see what you can do with it."
Octavian said no more at dinner, and when Jules spoke with him on the subject plus his own ideas for Octavian's future, he said nothing to indicate he was unhappy.
I posted this yesterday, but it seems to be missing today:
As I said before, the new will was naming Phil until his brother was born, then if the baby survived, Phil would later be removed and his brother would be named. It had to be written this way because Jules and I were planning our return to Egypt and Jules wasn't scheduled to return to Rome for a number of years.
Octavian suspected changes in the will were being planned before he arrived for his visit. In his last letter from Jules, Jules mentioned he wanted to talk to him about the future and changes he felt it was time to make. Knowing it was about the will and having already discussed it with his classmates, Octavian lead the conversation to have me confirm my feeling on it, and a month later Jules was gone.
The good name that Antony was referring to was Octavian's family name, and not his association with Jules. I'm not sure what his father did but the family had four times the money Jules had. I do know that however Octavian's father made his fortune it was not in government. Something with shipping and boats, but it was never understood by myself and others why Octavian wanted to be a senator when he was prominent enough through his own father.
And after Jules died, there was no chance I would let Phil have anything to do with Rome, even if there was a legal standing. Sappho sent a very colorful letter to Antony and others involved saying as much. And when Sappho had more children she did so with the intent that none of her children will work in Rome as long as Octavian was alive. Antony had a very clear understanding of this and wrote his will accordingly.
I need to look at his will next...
Funny that Antony's will is the only one that had vestal virgins guarding it! Wonder if he paid them in suckers 😃
http://www.foxnews.com/science/2014/11/10/lost-gospel-claims-jesus-was-married-had-children/
Da Vinci's Last Supper reminds me so how sick you can feel before you can rise again three days later...John's healthy appetite was reduced to a slice of bread and 1/2 a glass of wine, while mine was a 1/4 slice of pizza with some water and I went right back to bed. Eating was all I managed to get done that day. Late the next day I had an apple...
Still I wonder what it was all for, don't get me wrong, I like my new job, but I cant really say my ideas are for everyone when I so strongly believe the quickest to teach empathy is to show someone how pain feels...getting more ideas right now. Might be back with them later.
But I plan on buying the book. With L. for you guys today.
P.S. Please check on Brig, I had a dream he was crying quiet tears.
Sorry, it was an orange, not an apple, and not that it matters, not at all.
Still, have a good day today and when you think of me, do it often!
The other problem I'm having is, I saw a three or four year old wearing a long floppy eared bunny costume for Halloween, he was as cute as can be and wouldn't mind this except that if everything (like yogi and bells divorce) I think about your lives is wrong, then why are Ari and Armand still playing the game? What is the point behind having me think Beth is married with at least one child if she's not?
Why do they want me to know she's married, has a baby, then let me know that she's not, but then later show me her baby dressed as a bunny? L.
"I so strongly believe the quickest way to teach empathy is to show someone how pain feels..."
I always believed that my "mind your manners" philosophy only works when Armand's and Ari's are also used. A three way kind of world. After all, why were there three philosophers (Plato, Aristotle and Socrates) if their differences weren't valid? That if my way, or Ari's way doesn't suit say Octavian, Paris, Cauchon etc, then he gets turned over to Armand who the kills him and eats him on a stick. And he learns the hard way.
But the idea I was having earlier was "that doesn't teach him how love feels."
That I get my ass kicked all over the globe lifetime after lifetime, never hurting him back, then taking another lifetime to only recover and nothing more (not be compensated in any way for the unnecessary pain he caused), well, how does that teach him how love feels?
I think it teaches him he can get away with murder, AND get to see a miracle. While I sit and wait for years to just stand up again after his assaults. Shouldn't I be the one getting the miracle and not him?
So the "that doesn't teach him how love feels." probably isn't the rational that answers my questions. But I think I should include all my doubts here, which I sometimes have, until the proof I carefully hid comes to light. Hopefully that isn't a lie as well.
And I've got to tell you I'm VERY disappointed in this whole healing process...and I'm not as bitter as I used to be, so don't worry if this sounds like I am, I'm just disappointed.
But know I did have a good day today. So, L. to you, and have a good night!
There was another paragraph before this one that my original and lost post had that I need to include:
"And after Jules died, there was no chance I would let Phil have anything to do with Rome, even if there was a legal standing. Sappho sent a very colorful letter to Antony and others involved saying as much..."
After Phil, Ritchie and I left Rome, there was an idea to challenge and remove Octavian's right to Jules' will. The idea was that since Jules died the morning on his way to sign it, it showed he had a clear intent to follow through with the new changes.
I wrote and told everyone, that they were not to use Phil as bait for their psychopath. Whoever the murder was would surely target him next.
Good Morning my Love!
Did you get a chance to read Tyberonn's email yet? I thought I would share my thoughts with you...
I think when he talks of Max and Sha Na Ra there is a dual meaning. I believe that for most every technical advancement there is also a physical model. And while I believe at times he is just talking about the actual crystal (and not the biological crystal) skulls, I know at other times he is speaking of both. And Ari agrees that when he implies, or I pick up on the biological crystals, he is referring to you and me. You of course, are Sha Na Ra, a musical note, and I'm Max the Librarian.
I also get the dual meaning when he talks about meetings at physical locations like Colorado, Arizona and others, and I think he is talking of another aspect or function of the crystals. When they meet or come together in "Arizona" we mix and work so well together, and we work differently together when we meet in "Colorado". I'm reminded right away how my Phil and Alex are recorded in history as Philadelphia and Alexandria. On a personal note, if you see Alex this weekend tell him I said hi and give him a hug!
Also I'm encouraged about the video attached to the newsletter in the email. That others agree that the moon was moved is very encouraging to me. I'm only 20 minutes into that video, but I do know that before the moon was cut, it also spun slowly, and if it were ever to move closer to the earth again it will spin again. But I wouldn't EVER recommend touching the moon again, and not just for science reasons.
I don't think the moon was ever in danger of colliding with the earth but some did believe, but it did need to moved...L.
But in spite of all this, Tal Bachman is still a one hit wonder who thinks the sun shines solely for him.
Good Night and Sweet Dreams. L.
And when the moon spun, it was a much slower rotation than the earth, AND the only reason it spun was because the earth did too. Cause and affect. Have a great day today! L. P.S. I think Bell looks AMAZING and beautiful!
I just started looking at 'The Woman with the Alabaster Jar' by Margaret Starbird, and two things stand out so far, pg 23 is talking about the Holy Grail brought to France that once contained the blood of a dying Jesus...that is a simile (or was it a metaphor), borrowed from the last supper when Jesus said "This is my blood", there was no holy grail beyond the last supper and Galahad.
I know that John wasn't feeling well at the last supper because not only did he not eat anything, he was also so misunderstood. The apostles had no idea what he was talking about at that time, and this mimicked the later days of Atlantis. D and I went through something so similar, and on occasion still do!
The last days of Atlantis were the days when animal sacrifices were practiced, this was just one idea that was misunderstood and used because of the disappearance of technology and an idea that Horus favored because he loves to create rules and rituals. Once the animal was killed, the animal was eaten. Food was not so plentiful you could kill and waste.
Today, for Horus every meal preparation is a ceremony. Once while he lived with us he was making himself and D's mom waffles, and I think he would pray before he started preparing his food, but since I tried not to look at him, I could be wrong on that.
D's mom dipped her finger into the batter, tasted it, and found out it was against his law to taste anything before it was ready. He left the kitchen right away and went to his room, stayed there for an hour or so, until he was told to clean up the kitchen.
And I did tell him and his dad that I didn't appreciate him acting like a big baby. D's mom was embarrassed, but didn't seem to think her grandson had issues he needed medical help with. There is always a great excuse from her for his OCD and other problems.
And Horus was the vegan I informed about Jesus multiplying the fish.
Ahhh, all the fun times we had together at The Corners!
When John was saying 'This is my body, this is my blood' it wasn't a prayer, it was a 'dream' explanation of his relationship with food.
But I don't think that is the whole explaination and John was the only one able to understand what he was saying, so I doubt it had any meaning beyond John....
Didn't find anything more from Starbird's book. I'm only up to pg 37 and all I've come up with is that MM used the oil on Johns feet because they were cold and ached with the onset of rigor.
I heated the oil to help rub some warmth into them. And I didn't use my hair, I took my veil, I uncovered my hair and wrapped it around his feet to help keep them warm.
I spent some time this evening looking for an old article about a male and a female mummy found together in Greece, I remember when I first read the article I believed it might have been Helen and her husband. They were covered in gold leaf and it was the jewelry with the woman that made me think it might be them. I wanted to read it again, but can't find it. Too bad.
Also, I don't know why I'm thinking about this now but for the Bishops staff and the fingerprints on it...both Cauchon and I have our fingerprints already on file. Thought we never worked together we both had security clearances for our jobs. I assume they were added to a computer data base and kept, but I don't know for certain.
Good Night! L.
And the Biter never touched the staff when he threw it into the pit. As he tried to take it Cauchon stopped him, and remembering how I grabbed and held on to it, he told the biter not to touch it directly, use a rag.
One more thing I forgot to mention...if you can't find the right music for The Nature of Time, you're to strip the lyrics form something you already wrote and use mine.
Don't even care if this is right or makes sense to you, I would like to go to sleep now, and doing Ari's bidding is the quickest way to shut him up. Sorry & L.
Good Night.
Good Morning my very own Angel!
Jumping back to Goldsworthy pg 348, I've wondered all this time why History has all of the names mixed up and even over used, like so many Julia's in Antony's family, for example. I believe they were given as faith names or religious names. Like when you are Baptized you go by a name and later at Confirmation you take yet another name, and it is typical in religion to take a different name when you've reached a different stage of life, a different age. And when History was written, they used the names of faith/religion because they were the persons official and legal name.
I think it was rather sweet that Tal was Alexander the Great, then later known as Antony, and our first son was also named Alexander...a soft reminder that our Alexander was to carry on with Alexander the Great's mission.
Also, Baptisms have been around since before Atlantis. It has a very strong dream meaning, so when you think of John the Baptist, realize he didn't invent the idea, but provided the ceremony as a service.
Sir Gawain and the Green Knight was a way for Morgan to entertain and bond with her son. To keep him interested in the story, she watched him play, using some of his ideas even asking for his help. He was thrilled to tell his mother what the Green Knight should do next. Loving the family stories and never having met his grandfather, it was also a way for him to grow closer to Arthur.
Lancelot loved Mordred, wanting to be just like him it was easy to convince him to eat his supper and learn his lessons so he can grow strong and smart like Mordred. I did this always knowing he would leave me at a young age to work with Mordred and most times Mordred's job involved travel. You might even say once he left home, he was more Mordred's son than mine, so I focused on Lancelot's happiness while he was mine. I was even relieved later that he had such an attachment to my beloved brother, the two proved very good for one another.
While my main concern was to give Lancelot a happy childhood, Mordred's was to give him opportunity, and we did this so strongly because of the doubts and anger that came from his birth. For the most part we succeeded in our goals, and he was able to take any of the hate surrounding his life in stride, though later, most people loved Lancelot. His relationship with Mordred gave him another father figure (along with Uther) and Mordred was able to fill a void, easing some pain over Galahad's death.
That Mordred and his wife are not laid to rest side by side was the way they both wanted it. They only had one child, and his wife spent most of her time living and working as a nurse in the church hospital. She wanting chastity, and while her and Mordred were civil and left each other alone, they weren't happy in the same room, but she was never happy away from the church.
Mostly, when I returned from Germany, she left, and that had been in the works for some time. When Galahad was sick she returned briefly, and yes, she blamed us all for not taking better care of him. She said she thought we were competent and felt betrayed when he died, even though it was okay for her to leave him because she had a calling from God. She was devout as a socially acceptable way to leave her husband. But she made a better nun than wife, and once she became a nun, or nun like, she and Mordred started to think a bit better of each other.
I saw her only twice, and only spoke to her once. She wouldn't have anything to do with Morgan because of my psychic reputation, even saying so before I ran from Germany. After I returned from Germany, her reaction to me was typical of anyone who knew of me before they met me. I had much better luck with people if I met and spoke with them before they knew my name. And I'm told that she and I made our peace with one another through Joanne, or rather she changed her mind about me, because the Church approved of Joanne.
The stories of Guinevere living in a convent after Arthur's death were of her living in the hospital women's ward until she died. I couldn't care for her with Lancelot on the way and my legal troubles. Everyone knew she was sick most likely dying, months before Arthur's heart attack surviving him by only a month, maybe two.
That Guinever had an affair with Lancelot was misunderstood in two ways. She was seen as betraying Arthur's honor, or memory, by not condemning Lancelot's adulterous birth from those who believed it that way, and then later, the girl he fell in love with had eyes like Guinever's.
I know our Alex is part of our Camelot life, a Templar and another of Arthur's grandsons from one of our sisters. The sister married one of Knights from Arthur's table, and since he wasn't their first son and to inherit his living, he joined the Templars. Mordred met him a couple of times before, but when I met him he was older, of age, and at least 5 years older than Lancelot. I'm told there are enough clues in history that he can find his name from that life.
I have three posts here today, I'll try to check back later to see if they are all still there. L.
Mordred's wife is in the crypt because the Church insisted she spend eternity next to her husband, but husband and wife would have none of that, so the two worked around it.
Mordred's was an arranged marriage, like Morgan's, and of Arthur's children we were the only ones. Our sisters were married locally, to promote France's harmony rather than a global one, and they chose their own husbands from France's government with our parents guidance.
Mordred's wife was from Italy, and I think her being in the crypt won't play a role until some time yet in the future. She was Osiris' wife, Antony's, Mordred's, that's all I'm certain of so far. L.
And there is a huge French/WW2 connection with both of our marriages from that life. I'm just starting to look at it, so don't expect anything from me today, it's big and it's also complex, it may take some time. So have a great time today!
Good Morning Everyone!
Was looking at Isis/Osiris and their relationship. It bothers me that there is an affair between them when neither of them would take such a negative risk especially while both were in the public eye.
I've wondered since Atlantis was a 1/2 solid 1/2 dream kind of world, that the love affair was just the Atlantian dream part from the connection Isis/Osiris shared. Like Audrey/Ari...and looking at it from where I am, it might look so real. Just a thought.
Later & Love.
And when I say "and looking at it from where I am, it might look so real" I mean that the Audrey/Ari part of the Isis/Osiris relationship has more form to it looking at it now that it might have had back then. So it looks like it's a solid memory, maybe?
When I look at the historical energy (what Ari see when he tells you history) of France as a country, there is a lot of movement and activity, similar to the US. And when I say "energy movement from France", I mean that it was strong global energy movement and has been like that, with some lulls, since before Atlantis.
It is known that Templars amassed great wealth and many today think it came from war or what is thought of as a crusade. Arthur's crusades were peaceful missions, some were peace talks and some were police actions designed to intervene and keep parts of the Middle East from civil war.
After Attila the Hun left France in disarray, Arthur and mostly his father at the beginning, brought regional French rulers to the Table with the intent to restore the countries old borders. After France's reunion was declared a success, many countries, like Turkey, who were most affected by Rome's fall tried using it as a model. Turkey invited Arthur's help repeatedly.
Attila saw himself as a liberator. Rome had been in decline for some generations and by Attila's lifetime it robbed many countries of their wealth to feed a dysfunctional and expensive government. A Roman government that was adopted, even voted for, during Antony's time were now seen as unwelcome invaders, refusing to leave or even allow a prosperous change for people.
Attila's country suffered harshly, and in his anger over Rome's corruption and showing no interest to fix itself, he is remembered as leading a global rebellion. He did and he didn't do that.
His success for his own country, sparked others to do the same. And when that happened, sometimes he played a person role, sometimes he played a financial role, sometimes he played no role and sometimes he was just blamed for random violence. But next to Rome's unchecked greed, he was very much the catalyst of rebellion, and while some atrocities did come from his men and their attacks, some were rumors.
His goal was to kill Rome and this started a global domino effect, and that he was so successful so quickly proved to everyone that Rome had lost its favor with the world.
It's been a number of years since I've looked at any personal descriptions of Attila, and when I did this years and years ago, I believed him to be Osama bin Laden.
Templars made their wealth from managing France's banking system and travel. That they became somewhat wealthy in a short time showed how corrupt and expensive Rome's government became.
It took about 100 years for Templars to show its large, and at that time, legal profit. After people recovered economically, they left their fortunes in the banking system and like most large groups controlling large amounts of money and also law enforcement, they were accused of corruption and dismembered. Their troubles began with money from unclaimed wills.
One scam they were accused of, was not notifying next of kin to claim inheritance once a death was reported. When this was done often enough with many excuses made, people and the government demanded change.
The banking system in those days mostly came from wills, and was removed from the Templars control after their wealth was discovered to be much greater than first thought. And because their wealth was greater than expected, their justice system was questioned and found to be grossly corrupt in regional areas. To fix that problem the Templars were ordered to dissolve and a new organization was formed under the King's control.
Instead of the King using some former Templars in the new justice system he did away with them all together using his own people, his own supporters instead. The new bank and justice systems were formed to stop the Templars from becoming a separate government competing with the monarchy, which many thought Templars were doing.
Some Templars were arrested by the king because they were found to be corrupt, and when history records that they operated in secrecy, it was saying they committed many crimes in secret before they were finally prosecuted and dismantled.
Another way Templars made money was to provide safe escort through areas experiencing war and through long distance travel. This wasn't uncommon and how Sappho first met Antony. The Templars did well at this, and since they weren't they only group or government to provide this service there wasn't much opportunity for corruption. They used this money to support themselves and the king legally, with no real controversy.
That travel fell under their care was natural because if trouble started, the situation was to be handled quickly and justly.
I think I'm done today, or at least for a while. Enjoy the rest of your weekend. With L.
A small side trip in our story:
When I said I thought Helen and her husband might have already been found from the woman's jewelry, I also thought it could be them from their injuries. I read the article when I was feeling very scared. Being so afraid for so long, plus being nauseous and pained, I tried not to think about it. With my mental state at the time I thought I might be confusing myself. I also never took the time to study locations and other information in Homer's Iliad....should probably look at the story again, see what I find that's new for us.
Helen and her husband died from hatchet blows to their heads as they slept. Helen died right away from a single blow. She heard her skull crack and split apart, it was the noise of it that woke her. She felt a sharp pinch of pain at the right side base of her skull and then nothing as she laid still for a moment. She thought she was somehow caught in an in-between state of awake and sleep, waking up badly. She sat up in bed and tried to wake D, she was panicked thinking someone might be in their house and tried again to wake D.
He was slow to come around, and when he said he didn't hear anyone in the house she told him to look at their room. They lived near a light house and all of the normal light patterns she would see at night were gone. It was too dark and as he sat up in bed next to her he agreed.
When he moved she noticed the bed felt different, telling D she couldn't see any of their furniture. He was getting out of bed to light a lamp and she grabbed him saying, "I think we're dead!"
Helen followed him out of bed, telling him how she woke up and asking if he heard or felt anything odd as he woke. He said no, he was just groggy from too deep a sleep and he didn't believe they were dead.
She reminded him of the letter they just received from Paris' family and she asked him, "Where's our lamp? Where's our furniture and the rest of our things?" She was scared but didn't cry until she said, "Oh my God! My baby, I can't get to my baby!"
That morning Achilles was walking past our house to visit our father and he heard my daughter crying in the house. Everyone in our family lived on the same street, a family estate with four homes. He laughed to himself wondering if that was enough to change my mind about having more kids.
After an hour with our father he left noticing the baby still crying. Wondering why, he came in hoping to help me. He picked her up from her bed asking her where her Mama was. He changed her diaper and carried her as they tried to find me. She was about seven months old.
Worried, he gave her some milk, searched the backyard and the living spaces, finding nothing. He thought maybe D and I were sick and still in bed. When he found us he kept the baby from seeing the room, checking to see if D was still alive. He knew I was gone because the hatchet was still in my head.
Our sister Caroline was newly married and she raise my daughter as her own. My daughter grew up with her cousins as their sister, knowing every funny story and every good memory of her parents. She married well with five girls of her own and through her middle daughter Sappho was born.
After our bodies were removed, a search for the reason behind the murders turned up the letter in D's home office.
But here is where the story stops...I don't know what the letter said, it had something to do with the kidnappings and was from Paris' family. They wanted us to stop our public stories of what happened, but that's all I know. I know Joanne's father killed Helen, he adored Paris and was the youngest of four sons. Paris was the oldest. I know who killed D too, in that life he was a family friend to the sons.
I'm done for the night, sleep well! L.
I do wonder why Helen wasn't in Egypt. I know she knew she was psychic...Just a stray thought before I turn out the light. Night!
A quick fix for Helen's story: She was scared but managed it, until she said, "Oh my God! My baby, I can't reach my baby!" Helen had no idea if her daughter was killed too, and if she was, then where was she? And how do you find her, to see for yourself?
When Gloria died, her family was vacationing in Santa Barbara. For the adults it was a family reunion, an Uncle and our cousins were leaving for Europe and it would be years before we would all see them again. For the kids it was a beginning of summer celebration, and to make it extra exciting for the kids we took a train, complete with sleeper compartments!
We lived in San Francisco and while I'm not sure how my father's family made their money, I do know my father and all his siblings were well off. Railroads, shopping, comfortable rest stops, along with hotels and possibly an amusement park, is what is coming to my mind. And we took 4 days in extra stops to visit my father's work. My father wanted to show his children the family business, to show them how fun it can be.
When we arrived in Santa Barbara, we stayed in one of the family's beach hotels and the first day at the beach was warm and happy. Us kids had only been to the beach once before and that trip wasn't on as grand a scale as my Uncle's goodbye, and being close to the end of spring time, the weather was beautiful.
We already saw some of the local sights, and for me there were elegant meals in private dining rooms and idle afternoons embracing our distant family with lunch, afternoon teas and walks.
Even though I'd been in training to become a debutante the next year, being included like this was still new for me. As I was the oldest child of six and the first born of all my cousins, it was going to be a big event for my parents, grandparents and myself.
So, when Cauchon left after living with us the first time, and I began to realize my efforts at friendship were wasted, I was depressed and would cry for no reason other than to wonder at his hatred of me and my anger at him. And the dreams started.
It was afternoon and I was swimming in the water, I turned and watched my family on the beach. My dad, his brothers and some of the kids were playing volleyball, my mother and aunt were sitting on a blanket talking and watching some of the younger kids wade and build castles. I looked at them all and thought how lucky we all were that we could enjoy each other's company so throughly. I knew there were some tensions in our family, but love always seemed first in everyone's mind.
And as I was watching and appreciating my family, a wave rose between me and the beach. And as it started at a distance, by the time it reached me it was tall enough and strong enough to take me under. I was maybe six feet from the surface when I opened my eyes and as I saw the surface I breathed in, panicked that I seemed so far under. Once that happened, water rushed into my lungs and I clawed to the surface screaming "Mom, help me!!! I'm drowning!" And then, before I knew it, I surfaced with my family once again in view.
It was the scream in my dream that woke me. It broke my heart to hear it and I knew after I was awake that my mother watched the wave take me under. So I made myself some coffee, grabbed my tissues and as I sat at the kitchen table I found I was able to continue the dream, or rather the memory. And now looking back as I realize I've been reminded of the past most of my life, this was my first obvious reminder.
So I continued my dream over coffee. Replaying what I already saw and felt in the dream, I was able to continue watching my mother jump up. She started screaming, running toward my father pointing in my direction. He ran to try to help her, and when he understood what happened he ran back toward the game calling for help.
Right away I started waving my arms hoping they would see that I was ok. "They can't see me," I thought, "because it's too bright out." When I surfaced, the sun's overly bright glare on the water was the only thing that looked different to me.
I continued waving my arms calling to my father. He and my uncles were rowing toward me and as the gap closed between us I worried, "Surely they are close enough to see me by now." My father was looking into the water calling for me, and after some minutes the boat stopped and my father broke down and cried. I swam to the boat holding onto the side crying as I said, "Please don't cry Dad! I'm here, right beside you." And when one of his brothers touched his shoulder to comfort him, I realized from their behavior I was gone from them.
The very next moment, I was standing on the beach beside my mother. Her sister was holding her talking very softly hoping to keep her calmer now and soothe her, both were emotionally tired. Standing with them I knew that some time passed, the sun was going down for the day and I could see myself wearing a death robe with my hair long and straight, no longer having the curl I usually gave it.
The three of us were watching the boats and my mother replied, "I know it's too late to save her, I just hope they find her." My aunt waited before saying, "It looks like the boats are coming back now..." And since I knew they wouldn't see me I didn't put the same energy into my mother's goodbye that I had with my father. I told her I would check on them and I would miss them because they couldn't see me. But they did hear me from time to time.
I was standing in our kitchen. Our cook was making cookies for my brother and sisters telling the butler and a maid that she won't believe it until she saw it with her own eyes that I wouldn't be returning home with them. I knew they were talking about the telegram a day earlier, saying they were returning early and why. I watched the cook work as I sometimes did and then I was gone.
I was standing on our front staircase. The butler open the front door just before the kids ran in the house. The smaller ones seemed in an active and loud, almost disagreeable mood. The maid told them there were cookies and milk, shoeing them off into the kitchen. My parents entered the house very slowly, it was easy to hear their heartbreak when my father told the butler to take my bags up to my room, and the maid could wait to unpack them since they still hadn't decided what to do with my things.
The butler gave a small bow and we watched my parents leave the hallway for our living room. I saw the maid cling to our butlers arm to comfort herself while I slowly sat on the steps before I left them.
L.
Wishing you a good night. I'll be by tomorrow to reread some stuff, but there probably won't be much that's new, if anything. L.
Good Morning my Little Devil!
Tyberonn's new email reminded me of one very important fact about Atlantis that caused many to believe it was wicked and evil.
The reason people were opposed to the moon cut and moved as it was, was because of the violent aftermath that everyone knew would happen: other large groups of people and animals would die. Flooding was not even considered as a real problem, localized flooding maybe...
As the moon moved closer to Eden, it changed Eden to be able to support other types of beings, like the extreme giants and midgets Tyberonn talks about, Neanderthals, dinosaurs and probably more than that.... So those beings simply showed up in Eden one day from other worlds because of the moon (possibly other planets shifting) movement and effect.
Once they showed up here they started reproducing here too. And because they were gradually able to be seen, it was thought that they should be gradually asked to leave by gently and slowly pushing the moon away.
Some of the extreme giants and midgets were gravity experiments like the statues of Easter Island and the really large dinosaurs. I think they did this to children and new born animals and gave them treatments as they grew. But at the same time I know they have their own world apart from ours that was seen on Eden. Atlantis was trying to recreate them through science.
This was the reason the church stifled science for so long, because of these types of experiments and the moon disaster. It is also the reason it is relaxing its rules on science as the closer we get to becoming a tech savvy Atlantis. A kind of repeat.
Someone asked why Horus would believe he could cut the moon without damaging the Earth. The answer is Horus thinks he knows everything, if you were to see him speak he is solidly convinced his ideas are right, and it's his certainty that convinces others who hear him to also believe he knows. When you don't know the answer yourself, it's easy to think that he (or someone else) does. Plus he is VERY book smart, so it's easy to see his knowledge, hear his certainty, and totally not know that he has NO SPIRITUAL SIDE! (it's in caps because people always forget to look at that too!) When that type of person attracts other types just like him, and they all have some authority, they can disastrously change a country and world.
Horus and Atlantis' government thought they knew everything, they knew tides were controlled by the moon, and when they cut and moved the moon they thought the moons control over water would simply stop. But I'm not sure why they thought stagnant water would be a better idea. There must be more science here than I know, can Earths gravity also cause tides? No wait, I'm thinking currents, he just thought the currents would be ok...anyway, they did what they did because they thought they knew everything, and they decided this for the whole world.
And it's important to note: they say they absolutely (again with conviction) are spiritual because they demonstrate it through their repeated rituals (OCD).
It's a bit long of an explanation, hope it makes some sense to you. Might be back later...we have snow today, and I might have to cancel my plans since I never drive in the stuff.
With Audrey.'s love!
When I read this "...And these (Crystals) were used to communicate 'outside the body', in the realm of the Saints"..." And the other Cayce quotes from Tyberonn's email I thought this might be where the crystal ball idea came from.
When I woke this morning, I felt the fingers of electricity over my entire body and at its strongest point, I felt my energy pattern. And it feels exactly as it looks!
When you see someone's black shadow, you can see that it's not entirely solid black, it has shades of black to it, sometimes they look free formed/formless and can be also seen as small dots or circles, and all of it moves and shifts like an electrical current running in different directions, following no path, yet is confined to you.
You feel your dots and circles appear, shift and disappear, then to reappear somewhere else on you, Also feeling the more formless pattern of different shades of black, to finish as softly as it started with the fingers of electricity. But all of it is your energy pattern.
Still reading the email, so I might be back later. Love you, Snow is great!
Good Night! Sweet Dreams too. L.
You are a Horus!
I'm the best thing that will ever happen to you.
McCoy.
Just wait til you remember that life, oh wait, you can't! You're not psychic enough. :)
Need to find some new inspiration. I'm out of ideas right now. L.
You're still a Horus and the least important thing to me, baby.
PISS OFF TAL!!!!
Oh look! A repeat...
Stopped by earlier and was so surprised to find a comment here I forgot to tell you...I've been thinking of the plane and N. Korea a couple times out of the blue, but no info as to why. Ari wanted me to make note it here, maybe to check the dates later when things get exposed? Anyway, L.
Good Night Everyone. L.
Somewhere in Tyberonns last email he says the polar ice caps melted after Atlantis, but they actually froze. And I'm a little worried why he would make a mistake.
Before the moon moved, temperatures varied and there was even snow, but the extremes of some places to stay cold and frozen, like Alaska, didn't really exist. Also, there was much more land, the earth was bigger. After the moon moved, the Earth shrunk in size and parts grew colder. This was because of the moon's new distance to the Earths inner core.
It shrunk by as much as 1/3 and created peaks and valleys that didn't exhist until the Earth reacted to the moons movement.
I wonder if the Earth can expand again? Gotta go for now. L.
And it's another Good Night from me to you! L.
I think Ritchie's name was Dellius, Antony's deputy.
The history of C&A that comes from Plutarch, was originally from Antony's journal. After our murders most of Antony's papers were turned over to roman historians. Plutarch may have been thought to have written them if he had the journal retranslated, updated, or even copied.
Dio was another historian who held and maintained copies. Might even have been Plutarch's predecessor, or vise versa.
Tarsus was where C&A were married. That A summoned C several times is meant to say, 'I'm here now.' And she would have then left to meet him. Whenever I was 'summoned' no matter be whom, it was usually a prearranged meeting and them letting me know they've arrived.
The physical description of C being known/loved not so much for her beauty, but for the sound of her voice was also from A's journal, and it's this and the coins that the world now know I have a horse face. Thanks Tal, for helping me hide!
Piss off yourself, Horus! You are such a bore.
Hahaha, Good Morning my Sweet!
You're just worried because I haven't posted anything in a while! And while I LOVE hearing from you, you just hold your horses until I'm ready mister, I'm working as fast as I can while keeping my holiday lifestyle!
The past two days, maybe more, I've been so c-c-cold in the mornings! Before, I was waking up to ignite into flames, now it's the cold electric feeling I wake to. And I mostly stay that way until the dog decides it's time to go outside.
I don't think I'll have much for you until the weekend, if then. But I do have one new idea that may lead to more, so I'm going to get started on it right now over breakfast! L.
I am not a Horus, Horus would never cry!
Nothing written for you yet. L.
Oh fuck! Isis and Horus were related, cousins. He was almost a generation older than her. Maybe 10-12 yrs. There was a long relationship, and we weren't close, but still there is more story than I care to know about.
Won't be home much today, everyone have a great day today!
Why don't you just give up, L? I don't need you any more.
I am real close to it....
Did you know that one of Mordred's passions was hawking and falconry? Are you starting to look at birds Tal?
And he was good at it.
Don't care.
Awwww, look who's grumpy!
You should have an idea by now that when you kill a person you alter your own DNA. The part that identifies you physically and your personality can change. Sometimes your new changes show themselves right away and sometimes they show up in your next physical lifetime. Taking the life of a person in violence has a boomerang affect on you. And if there is more than one killer, then they all feel the effects of the murder.
The boomerang affect is usually neutralized in a self defense killing. Want to know why? The intent of the killer is known, the force of the act is in motion and then it is neutralized.
Now some of you should remember forces can be directed and moved from the other side, like Joanne's miracle. And the farther into the heavens, the easier it is to gather, control and direct, and if you have a clear channel like Joanne to direct it through, you have what looks like a miracle here on Earth.
For something else to think about, during your life review others can also see what you've done! Like Cleopatra watched the murder of Jules' first wife and they, like you, can see it from any world or language they choose, as if they are right there as it happens. And more: thoughts, feelings, are also recorded for worlds of languages to see. So when you hear about the power of positive thinking, you should consider how your thoughts affect us all and sometimes seal your fate.
This is not meant to feed a persons paranoia into believing every thought must be kind and forgiving. Far from it! There is much leeway and understanding given to people, their private thoughts and anger.
Anger can be a great motivator and is better understood in the heavens than it is on Earth. For future science formulas, violence needs to be part of the equation, but it also needs to decrease from the current volume found on Earth. Just know for the numbers of people in the world today, violence and war is at a low, and as I said before, it needs to go lower.
And remember, most people are very kind, and it was always so.
Before your birth, you have a plan for your life, or at least you should and are encouraged to make one. This is typical, but not mandatory.
For the murder victim, their plans alter suddenly, as does the plans of their loved ones. The shock, physical pain, fear and anger of everyone matters, as does the sudden stopping of the life that was ended. All that science adds up and is given over to the murderer. And do you know when I say the shock, pain fear and anger are given over to the murderer, I am also including your feelings after you are murdered? I have long believe if people knew what happened to themselves when they kill another, they would never murder.
From Old Testament Atlantean times the boomerang effect was referred to as God's anger, or God's wrath. A more modern reference is karma, but remember I said karma is also a force or science of its own and to explain how it is transferred, or boomeranged is not yet known to me. Just know for now that when the victim's plans change suddenly, the criminal's or murder's does too, and it's only time that makes it look not so. But all will be settled here on Earth, or as I sometimes think of it, the scene of the crime.
As a side note: I am only talking about people murdering one another, the animal kingdom uses a slightly different set of rules, which is why it has its own kingdom. To kill an animal for food is still necessary to nourish your body, this is because we are all connected and rely on plant, animal, and mineral kingdoms to survive.
Sorrow is not considered as part of the boomerang or karmic force. It doesn't have the same movement fear and anger have, using a different vibrational set, one of its own. Sorrow is for you, not anyone else.
It is a healing tool to remove your trauma, so lives aren't ruled by repeats. It can be thought of as a separation step from the lower vibrational feelings of fear and anger. Rest and rebuilding vibrations, or feelings, follow sorrow and the cycle and duration of each is as individual as you are.
It may surprise you to know that there is no wrath of God or karma for suicide and addiction. When you die by your own hand, you are given the same care and attention after death as everyone else. You are counseled and cared for and in most cases when you return to this world, you find yourself in a repeat situation and with that comes the intuitive understanding that it's time to get serious and work through the repeat ending it for good.
Part of my tragedy with Octavian was his telling me in the heavens after Helen's murder that he would continue the repeat of ordering my death. Why, you ask? Because in the most ethereal heavens, meaning those that are less physical, you can see for yourself the boomerang effect very clearly.
But after each of Octavian's lifetimes he saw less and less of the ethereal heavens and with the time bump of his lifetimes he has forgotten that he was once able to see them at all. Forgetting what you saw so clearly in the higher heavens the closer you are to the physical Earth is a function of time. It diminishes your memory and you live in the lower heavens much like you live here on Earth: by faith.
When Octavian is shown his actions from the past, he denies its him. He thinks this because when you see your past lives in an afterlife review, it helps you to ascend (which he can't do) by triggering other memories, and he has none of that.
It was John's message to set the world on it's path to receive mine, and funny enough it's all the same message. When he said, "Love your neighbor." he was speaking to both myself and Octavian, and in every lifetime Octavian and I shared we were both warned.
Every warning he did not heed he sealed his fate. He will be known for his actions and I will be known for mine. He will be identified just as I will, we are polar opposites that have been shackled together when we are within time, our life's circumstances being equal in most lifetimes, only or actions separate us.
This was true in every life except Gloria's, and her life was meant to give me a small break, or a breath from the trauma of my past. So when I remembered Gloria in this lifetime, I had a taste, a beautiful reminder of how fun life can be once the trauma is over for me. It helped keep me going and today. So when I see many who think it ok to criticize another's wealth and comfort, saying its excessive or underserved, I think of Gloria and know you are not to judge.
So from the first time Octavian ordered my death, we were shackled within time, and had he picked a different course, we could have solved our problem and been free of each other right away. But it's not his way to admit guilt, and by changing his actions he would be admitting guilt, so he stayed his course knowing his was damning himself to save his pride. And then later to forget he was damning himself no longer able to see from the ethereal heavens, to finally no longer believing what he now needs to be told.
Since he was damning himself he decided to make sure it hurt me, not realizing it has also comeback to him. So when he was shown enough to finally realize his folly as Cauchon he started to show remorse, and only for himself.
There is more to share, but the topic seems so heavy, too wordy and deep to me right now, I can't tell anymore if it makes sense or if I could have explained it better. So I'll look at it again tomorrow, see if it sounds better to me then. L.
You be delusional, Horus.
Yeah, so?
A fix: Since he was damning himself he decided to make sure it hurt me, not realizing, or not caring it has also comeback to him.
The whole purpose of Joanne sitting in prison was time set aside to talk directly to my killers. So after my death when he was shown enough to finally realize his folly as Cauchon, he started to show remorse, and only for himself.
Some of those from Joanne's prison days are changing, some have only changed enough to stay out of prison themselves. and the only thing I have to say to them, is the same message I have for everyone: Remember me.
It's the same message, but the meaning is different for everyone who hears it.
Assisted suicide for the terminally ill who want it, is not seen as murder because it was part of the patients plan to die at that time. And while I will always support assisted suicide for any terminal patients who choose it for themselves, I will not support other forms of suicide for two reasons.
You know little of how the shock and trauma of your death affects yourself and your loved ones. And since the choice of suicide is part of any ascension process, you really don't know where in an ascension process you are, or how close you are to ending the repeat. Remember Satan tried to tempt Jesus into jumping off a cliff, just be aware that you are in good company.
So whatever pain you are feeling understand this: it is not worse than mine. Survive. And while you think about the sorrows in your life also know I didn't have many answers until I decided to survive, even started pushing for it. Then most of my answers started in different parts or pieces over time reaching me. Patience.
You should also be aware by now that your DNA depends on your thoughts as well. You can make yourself sick over your heartache as well as your hate. And lastly, for many of you, you will not know if you were the victim or the criminal, you will just know you are in pain. Try not to lay any blame when you don't have the whole story. Acceptance.
So acknowledge your pain, just try not to judge it. Feeling it when you have it helps in letting it go.
My reasons for writing this book might surprise you. Naturally I want to tell my side of history, but I also want to save the wisdom I've worked so hard for giving it once again to myself in the future. I have the answers now but the effects of time will again diminish it, taking from me to relearn what I spent this lifetime trying to understand. So if this book helps you, use it. But use it with the understanding it is meant to help you when the time is right. Everyone's path is different.
A fix:
As a side note: I am only talking about people murdering one another, the animal kingdom uses a slightly different set of rules, which is why it has its own kingdom. To kill an animal for food is still necessary to nourish your body, this is because we are all connected and rely on plant, animal, and mineral kingdoms to survive. As does each kingdom also rely on the others for survival.
To exclude yourself from any of these kingdoms can mean you are entering into an awkward teenage stage of spiritual growth. The 'We are Gods' stage.
And since I eat meat, and since you are no more God than I am, it might be more comfortable for everyone for some to refrain from these kinds of lifestyle judgements.
All of Earth's kingdoms rely heavily on one another, and that system of survival is very, very old and it works. Humanity cannot exclude itself from any of Earth's kingdoms and expect to survive. Period.
Your book is garbage.
Ha! Today it captures the hearts of many Bachmans, tomorrow it conquers the hearts of entire worlds!
Did you know that when Sappho was describing the murder of Jules' first wife she was there with us in the room? And she was a part of that reading hearing for the first time her past at Troy and the motive for her murder?
Ascension comes in many forms, and her experience watching us and hearing more about her past was part of her transitional course work. Since each person's history is unique, as is each death, you are gradually introduced to your new afterlife individually and in mass. Totally mimics the Egyptian style class structure of the University!
Most everyone can ascend in the heavens, even murders, but most murderers decide not too because of the painful feelings involved. Like when a murderer fights a death sentence. The "It's ok if I kill you, but not ok for you to kill me" mentality. A type of boomerang they can look forward too after death. Again, science has set up the boomerang system. There are no prison guards in the lower heavens, but did you know the spirit world has designed and directed the energy, or science, to do that automatically?
Some spirits opt to wait where they are until they return to Earth, because once you ascend and feel the hard feelings, you must descend and feel the hard feelings again to incarnate. It's easier to sit where you are until you remove the painful feelings at the source here on Earth, so when you again die and watch the deeds of your past you have the comfort that you at least tried to rectify your past which can go a long way to soothing your pain as you move forward.
For Octavian in the heavens, he has taken all the instruction he will get where he is, and he sits there unable to free himself because he won't move here. If I might advise his doctors, I would tell them physical movement should be the bulk of his treatments. Get him outside working, let him help build roads, landscape, anything that involves moving earth. And be ready for the fall out, it will hurt his feelings. Why, because he doesn't move, and to start here on Earth will hurt. Plus physical activity will always help with depression. Moving large amounts of dirt with a shovel will benefit him from a dream perspective...and those symbols have individual meanings.
For myself, that I've relived those lifetimes in this one will help my own afterlife. That I am aware of my past here will absolutely ease my transition and every lifetime from now on. Plus my next physical life will now have new choices, adventures and opportunities. Much to look forward too.
Some spirits have very little transition, for some it's just a matter of relearning your environment.
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